Antbf

i wish i could smoke this all away
i don't care about the straight edge like i used to most days
most days i would do anything to numb the pain
but i'm a coward and i'm shallow and i'm most of all
just scared of any change
everyone's at parties and i'm alone in my house
i haven't opened a window in weeks
and i'm still watching top model reruns on my couch
i wish i could scare my nightmares away
i've tried lucid dreaming a few times
and i've tried staying awake
and i skimmed that self-care article you sent me
and it's not like i think i'm special
i just think some things apply to everyone but me, anna