This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
[Verse 1 – Cise Star]
Militant-minded, shining diamonds with my heart on the ropes
Take the edge. When I rewind, I’m climbing the slopes
Bring it closer to the essence, I’m breathing with God’s blessings
Moving forward, but thinking, but sinking into depression
Pulling my own weight, I struggle with opposition
I’m wrestling down angels and strangle the competition
Searching deep in my heart—I’m looking for definition
In simple terms, I yearn to find my life’s mission
Listening to the inner, this sinner will find answers
Hoping that I remember that Hell is like a cancer
Blast as a drum kick hits into oblivion
Flash as the sky splits, slip into meridian
Capture the rapture, fall into disaster
Ambient sound surround and press the master
Soundtrack of living in stores if Lord willin’
The last day’s bumps so nice in car systems
Redemption
[Verse 2 – Cise Star]
My system hydraulic, we frolic
Young man he stands, he brands alcoholic
Smash through the glass, he shatter against love
Slip away from the close-up pain—it’s such a drug
Run away from innocence, a child of the shadows
Unravel the mystery, the reason of the shackles
No pot to piss in with nobody to listen
Went Godbody, Five Percent to the Christian
Crusades are inner, reborn a dope nigga
A crease in his pants, he stance, remain bigger
Looking for a peace of mind but never found it
Looking for a peace of mind but never found it, shot
[Verse 3 – Cise Star]
And there was I, standing here, wondering why
A blue rose never grows to a velvet sky
Why the Sun gotta go for the Moon to rise
And when we born, why the first thing we do is cry
[Interlude]
Possessed is probably a good word. Uh, what I’m possessed by at the time, I don’t really know. But I seemed to lose a little bit of… I think I’ve lost my brains
[Verse 4 – Akin]
Crying, like breathing air, but still dying
Flying with broken wings, lying—nah, nigga, I’m in
No position for that. Shit is critical actually
Survivalist tactics got me on point
Thinking, “Put the weed out. Hold your head high
History’s a lie,” broadcasting it live
Through your cyberspace. I might walk with [MacGyver’s?] fate
Perhaps lose the next day, can’t predict the future
You wanna be a star, crack a smile so they can shoot ya
Rhymin’ in limelight—to me shit is weak
I’m just another slave riding up shit’s creek
Militant-minded, shining diamonds with my heart on the ropes
Take the edge. When I rewind, I’m climbing the slopes
Bring it closer to the essence, I’m breathing with God’s blessings
Moving forward, but thinking, but sinking into depression
Pulling my own weight, I struggle with opposition
I’m wrestling down angels and strangle the competition
Searching deep in my heart—I’m looking for definition
In simple terms, I yearn to find my life’s mission
Listening to the inner, this sinner will find answers
Hoping that I remember that Hell is like a cancer
Blast as a drum kick hits into oblivion
Flash as the sky splits, slip into meridian
Capture the rapture, fall into disaster
Ambient sound surround and press the master
Soundtrack of living in stores if Lord willin’
The last day’s bumps so nice in car systems
Redemption
[Verse 2 – Cise Star]
My system hydraulic, we frolic
Young man he stands, he brands alcoholic
Smash through the glass, he shatter against love
Slip away from the close-up pain—it’s such a drug
Run away from innocence, a child of the shadows
Unravel the mystery, the reason of the shackles
No pot to piss in with nobody to listen
Went Godbody, Five Percent to the Christian
Crusades are inner, reborn a dope nigga
A crease in his pants, he stance, remain bigger
Looking for a peace of mind but never found it
Looking for a peace of mind but never found it, shot
[Verse 3 – Cise Star]
And there was I, standing here, wondering why
A blue rose never grows to a velvet sky
Why the Sun gotta go for the Moon to rise
And when we born, why the first thing we do is cry
[Interlude]
Possessed is probably a good word. Uh, what I’m possessed by at the time, I don’t really know. But I seemed to lose a little bit of… I think I’ve lost my brains
[Verse 4 – Akin]
Crying, like breathing air, but still dying
Flying with broken wings, lying—nah, nigga, I’m in
No position for that. Shit is critical actually
Survivalist tactics got me on point
Thinking, “Put the weed out. Hold your head high
History’s a lie,” broadcasting it live
Through your cyberspace. I might walk with [MacGyver’s?] fate
Perhaps lose the next day, can’t predict the future
You wanna be a star, crack a smile so they can shoot ya
Rhymin’ in limelight—to me shit is weak
I’m just another slave riding up shit’s creek
Lyrics submitted by CloudEater
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