I believe this is another amazingly on point and nuanced commentary on the insanity that follows emotionally abusive relationships. The abuser has no anxieties, no emotional pain, or salience/memory for that matter, so the survivor appears to be the crazy one, obsessed with the abuse and that buzzword that seems to ignite arguments about diagnosing people without a degree, etc. funny how you say the words domestic violence, abuse, abuse survivor and boom the subject changes. Anyways, I especially relate to her midnights becoming afternoons, complex PTSD often leads to this phenomenon, whether due to purposeful sleep deprivation by the abuser, or just hyper vigilance associated with the PTSD, along with the fear of facing people, especially your loved ones, who
Never actually understand, even if they try, because all they see is you, on fire, screaming about the arsonist that no one ever sees, and who has been spreading lies about your alleged mental instability, deceptive personality, etc. the whole time. While the last thing survivors need is more blame, our society supports a narrative that blames the objectively innocent party because the blatantly guilty party has spent their entire lives fabricating a persona and we’re just being human, and human psychology is quite counterintuitive especially in the context of trauma. Look at Amber Heard. Vilified and not believed, regardless of what any abuse survivor could recognize as a fellow survivor instantly. But Johnny depp is a malignant narcissist, a man, and wealthy as all get out. It’s sick.
Under your protective wing I walked into the night
And a thousand angry demons up and took flight
I went running through the fields with the fever in my veins
And the rain came crashing down and tried to clear my name
Above my head, all in red, I could see you bearing down on me
You said you're not running out, you said you're not leaving now
I will find you, there is no way
I'll keep tracking you down in the still of the night
Forever, you're mine forever
Don't leave your mark on me, no need to reply
I'm not staying, I'm just killing time
Don't leave your mark on me, no need to reply
I'm not staying, no, I'm not staying no
This nightmare never ends, memories of absent friends
Mistress of the darkness, accomplice of the night
A shadow in the doorway beckons me inside
And something led the way though I couldn't see its face
And a voice from deep inside me screamed to get out of this place
In my head, someone said that the jailer turned the key on me
He said you're not running out, he said you're not leaving now
I will find you, there ain't no way, no way, yeah
Don't leave your mark on me, no need to reply
I'm not staying, I'm just killing time
Don't leave your mark on me, no need to reply
I'm not staying, no, I'm not staying no
This nightmare never ends, memories of absent friends
Don't leave your mark on me
(Nightmares that will never end, drink a toast to absent friends)
And a thousand angry demons up and took flight
I went running through the fields with the fever in my veins
And the rain came crashing down and tried to clear my name
Above my head, all in red, I could see you bearing down on me
You said you're not running out, you said you're not leaving now
I will find you, there is no way
I'll keep tracking you down in the still of the night
Forever, you're mine forever
Don't leave your mark on me, no need to reply
I'm not staying, I'm just killing time
Don't leave your mark on me, no need to reply
I'm not staying, no, I'm not staying no
This nightmare never ends, memories of absent friends
Mistress of the darkness, accomplice of the night
A shadow in the doorway beckons me inside
And something led the way though I couldn't see its face
And a voice from deep inside me screamed to get out of this place
In my head, someone said that the jailer turned the key on me
He said you're not running out, he said you're not leaving now
I will find you, there ain't no way, no way, yeah
Don't leave your mark on me, no need to reply
I'm not staying, I'm just killing time
Don't leave your mark on me, no need to reply
I'm not staying, no, I'm not staying no
This nightmare never ends, memories of absent friends
Don't leave your mark on me
(Nightmares that will never end, drink a toast to absent friends)
Lyrics submitted by Mellow_Harsher
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