This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
THE ELYSIAN IN OUR CIRCLE LOOKS REAL TIGHT-A BEAUTIFUL VIEW A MARVELOUS SIGHT-LIKE WELCOME TO SUNSET AND ALPINE-A MINI DWP KINDA FROM THE DESIGN-WHEN YOU GOTTA TRY AND STAY RELEVANT FUCCIN WITH A KARDASHIAN YOU KNOW YOU AIN'T DOIN IT YOU TYGA-AND WHEN YOU GOTTA FALSE CLAIM HOODS AND CITIES YOU NOT EVEN FROM YOU KNOW YOU A LIAR-THE FUNBOY GOT A BIG GREEN DRAGON TATTOO WITH NO FIRE-MICHAEL'S BEEN SNITCHING ON ME AND MY PEOPLES FOR YEARS WITH CHRIS BROWN JUST ASK THE F.B.IER'S?-FRAMING US FOR DRE, EM, THE GAME, JIMMY IOVINE, ETC. WE GOT PAPERWORK ON THEM THAT PROVES THEY HAVE BEEN CONSPIRES-NO CEASE AND DESIST SENT TO ME BY THEY LAWYERS YOU KNOW I AIN'T THE LIAR-THEY BANNED ME FROM SKYSCRAPERS-THE WAY I SPIT DUBAI BUILDERS ALREADY HATE ME?-THERE SIDE OF THERE BUILDINGS BURN LIKE DRY PAPERS-EVEN WITH ALL OF MY WET BITCHES PACCED TIGHT-THEM SWISHER SWEET NIGHT'S-IT'S SUCH A SWEET SIGHT-VIOLENCE IS NOT GOOD HAVEN'T YOU NOTICED?-LIKE WHEN ENTERTAINERS GET INTO SOME SHIT NOW PEOPLE DON'T KNOW THEM-WHY YOU THINK THEY SMUTT ME AND MY GROUP UP?-JUST TO ADD FIRE TO A SUMMER MADNESS THAT BEEN WENT OUT NOW IT'S WATER GUNS?-KINDA WHEN IT COMES TO FLOWING AND SPITTIN-THEY JUST WANNA SET US UP TO GET US DID IN-BUT THOSE COWARDS ABOUT TO BE GOOD RIDENCE-LOCKED BACK ON THEY WAY TO PRISON-LYING TO THE F.B.I TO COVER UP MORE FOUL CRIMES GET'S YOU A LIFE SENTENCE-JOHNNY COCHRAN AIN'T COMING BACC-SO THESE SUCCERS IS ASSED OUT JUST ROTTEN FRUIT JUICE IN THE CAN-SPUD JUICE STUCC IN THE WEBB-COMIN UP SHORTER THEN SPUD WITH NO HORNET'S TO KEEP THE BUZZ ALIVE FROM THE PEN-JUST LIFE IN THE MAX NO BEE-NO WAVES NO FRENCH AND NO PAPPILON ESCAPING TO A BEACH-NO HENRI-YOU USE THE DEVILS CODES AS YOUR WANT ADS-YOU GET STUCC ON DEVIL'S ISLAND WHILE I FLAUNT YO CASH-AT YOUR MALIBU PAD'S-IN ROCHESTER HILLS AT WINKLER MILL AVE-GETTIN HIGH BUSTIN BIG STONEY CREEK NUTS IN MY BITCHES BIG OLE ASS-WHILE THEY WILL BE BROKE FEINING FOR A TIGER 13 SACK-NOT THE LUNCH JUST THE PAPERBAG-TO THROW SOME MUSTARD ON IT AND CHOW DOWN ON THAT-YOU KNOW MY GIRLS FREAKS LIKE ADENA HOWARD THEY LOVE TO SIP ON MY CORONA DRIVE-LIKE A PAST TIME-JUST TO PASS DA TIME-WITH A LITTLE GREEN STREET LIME-OLDTOWN PASADENA IS THE SIDE-A GRANDVIEW LIKE PAC HITTING EM UP-YOU CLAIM TO BE A PLAYER BUT I PASSED ON YOUR WIFE-LET FAITH TAKE IT'S COURSE IN A NATURAL LIGHT-WHILE I BE SIPPIN ON BOONE'S IN THE HOUSE OF BLUES WITH COOR'S AND NATURAL ICE-I GET HOWARD THE DUCCHEAD TIMES DIMES-CUZ I'M THE FLYEST AND BOMBEST KAMIKAZE LOON LIKE BROOKSIDE-LIKE BROOKLYN SIDE 4 LIFE-L.A CENTRAL SIDE INSANITY CSI-THAT'S ORIGINALLY L.A AND VAN NUYS-SOUTH ATLANTIC BLVD IS SAB FOR SL STREETLIFE-IN THE PEN I'M NBA BALLIN TOO HARD I GOT MY OWN OLD MONEY AND NEW MONEY STORE-PACCS R'US I DELIVER FROM THE 4 TO THE LEVEL 4-STRAIGHT FROM MY CELL FLOOR TO THERE CELL DOOR-EVERYTHING IS KOSHER AND WRAPPED OF COURSE-WELL DONE AND COOKED UP RIGHT AND CLEAN LIKE THE MAIN COURSE-IT'S JUST A PART OF THE DAILY CHORES-180 FAT CANTEEN ON THE 180 LEVEL 4 SCENE-WITH 500 DOLLAR PACKAGES FROM THE STREETS-YOU KNOW I'M GOING 180 PLUS 270 LIKE D-YARD PLUS B-IN SALINAS VALLEY-STRAIGHT LOVE FROM THE FAM IN L.A SAN GABRIEL VALLEY-I DIG THE TRACK N FIELD ANOUNCERS VOICE-IT REMINDS ME THE SANTA ANITA RACE TRACCS ON THE BOYZ-IT'S FELIX FOR THE WIN-SO FAST ON THE GAS THEY BE LIKE SHE GOTTA HAVE A TWIN-SOME MORE MEDALS TO ADD TO THE COLLECTION IS MANDO-THE YOUNG ODIE WITH THE GARFIELD HANDLE-LITTLE BK LOOKIN LIKE BEY-AND I'M LOOKIN LIKE A YOUNG JAY-I LOVE SOUNDCLOUD IT WAS THE FIRST MUSIC SITE I UPLOADED MY DEMOS TO-MY REAL HOMIES GOT THEM DOWNLOADS THAT I DELETED FAST THEY SHOULD BE MILLIONAIRES TOO-OR ON THEY WAY WITH MY RAREST CRYPTONITE GREEN ROCCS-LIKE THE BEING IN THE BACCPACC OF YOSHI THE WHITE SOCC-A GIDDY UP TO A WHOLE NEW GAMEFRAME-WHERE WE MAKE OUR OWN RULES AND PLAY MADE-WITH NO HATERS ONLY LOVERS THAT PLAY MAKE-THE ONLY GRADE IS GRADE A-WITH NO ALPHABET KILLERS TO CLONE LETTERS AND PLAY FAKE-NO DIKS TO RUIN OUR FUN WE PLAY SAFE-AFTER I BRANG THE GREAT LEAN FLOOD THEN CAME THE TOWER OF BABEL-MUMBLE RAP AND BUMBLE TRAP TYPE OF HIGH AS FUCC MUSIC MICS LIT LIKE ROMAN CANDLES-THEY SAY THEY NEED BABBEL-BUT COULD OF INVENTED A NEW WAVE FORM OF SCRABBLE?-LIKE NELLY SAID I'M SO SAINT LUIS RESTO-YOU CAN ASK MY CREW OF WEST HOES-THEY THE BEST GOLD-FROM THE DMV TO THE DIRTY TO THE EAST TO THE WESTCOAST-THEY MY SCHOOL OF BASS CALL ME JEFF-I TEACH THEM HOW TO LEAN SWIM IN MY LUNATEC TEF-THEY LOSE THEMSELVES TO THE DEATH-LIKE ME IN THE STREETLIFE CHUCCIN UP ABF-I BET DRE'S SON HATES FUTURE AND KARATE CHOP-THE WAY WITH HIS SHARP ASS TONGUE HE BIG BODY PARTY CHOPS-A SURGEON OR JUST A STURGEON?-OR JUST THE ONE WHERE THE MALIBU SURF IS?-A WIPE OUT WITH NO INSURANCE-BUT YOU DON'T NEED YOUR DAD'S HELP YOU SURE RIP?-YOU BE SELLING ON SOME UNSURE SHIT?-WORK WITH ME I COULD MAKE YOUR PROBLEMS FADE TO BLACK NO SCHURR TIP-WE DON'T HAVE TO BE SPARRING YOU CAN TRUST ME NO SCURGE NIP-NO TURNIN ON PEOPLE NO SPUR BITCH-BIZARRE USED TO LIVE ON MY STREET AND WORK OUT OF MY OLD TAT SHOP WHERE FIRST IS-THAT'S MY MALIBU MANSION LIKE WHERE THE HOURGLASS IS WHERE THE TURF IS-DOESN'T PAY TO STEAL PEOPLES MUSIC AND GO AROUND SAYING WE KILLED YOUR SON-WTF THAT'S SCANDO TO SPREAD BAD RUMORS ABOUT PEOPLE WITH NO PROOF NOT EVEN A CRUMB-KINDA FUNNY WASN'T THAT THE SAME AMOUNT OF BREAD YOU SAID WE WOULD GET FROM?-THE CIVIL LAWSUITS FILED AGAINST MR.YOUNG-YOU A SMOOTH OPERATOR LIKE SADE-ON THAT SILK ROAD TRADE-YA'LL LIKE DPR COMPUTERS AND THE INTERNET DON'T LIE-IT'S EASY TO TRACE WHO WHAT WHEN WHERE AND WHY?-IT'S CALLED A DIGITAL FINGERPRINT IN THE DIGITAL SPACE GALAXY-YOUR INFO IS CONSTELLATIONS EASY TO CONNECT THE ATTEMPTED PROCURING OF FATALITIES-AND THE STARS WORKING WITH YOU AND YOUR MAD HATTER TEAM-ROBINSON ROAD CORONA DRIVE AND ROBERTS CROWN STATE PARK-SOUND FAMILAR LIKE CROWN POINT DRIVE IN SAN DIEGO AND LONG BEACH CHERRY PARK-WHAT ABOUT HILLOCK DRIVE AND BLAIR DRIVE-RIGHT BY BLAIR HILLS AND MANTOVA DRIVE-RIGHT NEXT TO HAYDEN PLACE A.K.A SHERMAN OAKS YOUR SIDE-
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