Why do I deserve the science to feel better about you?

At a loss I lost my cool
I denied that I found you

I tried to be a basket case
I did not surprise you

I'm trying to find a signal fire
Let me know when I should move

But you, amplified in the silence
Justified in the way you make me bruise
Magnified in the science
Anatomically proved that you don't need me

Why do I desire the space?
I was mourning after you

I was lost and lost my shape
There was nothing I could do

I don't want to waste away
It was all I gave to you

Take me back and take my place
I will rise right up for you

But you, amplified in the silence
Justified in the way you make me bruise
Magnified in the science
Anatomically proved that you don't need me

All the while you waste away, you're asking
"Did I really need another one to take me down?"
Everybody knows it's something that you had to live with darling
Nobody's gonna tear you down now
There is nothing you keep, there is only your reflection

There was nothing but quiet retractions
And families pleading, "Don't look in that cabinet, there's far more bad than there's good, I don't know how it got there"

That was something your father had burned in me
Twenty hours out of Homestake eternity
"You can go anywhere but you are where you came from"

Little girl you are cursed by my ancestry
There is nothing but darkness and agony
I can not only see, but you stopped me from blinking

Let me watch you as close as a memory
Let me hold you above all the misery
Let me open my eyes and be glad that I got here


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    General CommentThe whole album tells the story of a dysfunctional family, with elements of Andy Hull's life woven throughout. From "my old man's heart attack" in The Gold, to "your drunken dad and a pair of scissors" in The Alien, and wanting to "feel the way our fathers felt" in The Grocery, there are references to family throughout the album including mothers, brothers, daughters, etc. But the references to fathers are most relevant, as Hull is coming to grips with his role as a father. The last track can be seen as an inter-generational conversation with each verse able to be interpreted differently when the speaker is changed between Andy, his father, or his daughter or any mix up of the three.

    There is a running theme of "there is nothing you keep when you die" in the album.

    The Maze - "There is nothing I've got when I die that I keep"

    Lead, SD - "If I die there's nothing I keep"

    The Wolf - "There is nothing you've got when you die that you keep"

    However, in the final track, Andy changes this to "There is nothing you keep, there is only your reflection", the realization that we are reflections of our parents, more specifically boys grow up to be our fathers. This is echoed again as

    "That was something your father had burned in me
    Twenty hours out of Homestake eternity
    'You can go anywhere but you are where you came from'"

    Could it be Hull wants to abandon this paradigm since it would mean his daughter is "cursed by my ancestry" and "there is nothing but darkness and agony"?

    The album is concluded with

    "Let me hold you above all the misery
    Let me open my eyes and be glad that I got here"

    Signifying the escape from a troubled past which is characterized as a mine or cave, or simply A Black Mile to the Surface.
    bottleon May 29, 2018   Link

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