Overall about difficult moments of disappointment and vulnerability. Having hope and longing, while remaining optimistic for the future. Encourages the belief that with each new morning there is a chance for things to improve.
The chorus offers a glimmer of optimism and a chance at a resolution and redemption in the future.
Captures the rollercoaster of emotions of feeling lost while loving someone who is not there for you, feeling let down and abandoned while waiting for a lover. Lost with no direction, "Now I'm up in the air with the rain in my hair, Nowhere to go, I can go anywhere"
The bridge shows signs of longing and a plea for companionship. The Lyrics express a desire for authentic connection and the importance of Loving someone just as they are. "Just in passing, I'm not asking. That you be anyone but you”
I started using again
Left my heart in rocky hill and
A whole burning in bed
Needed a distraction from my head
Devil on my shoulder said try this instead
So I started using again
I started sleeping again
Traded late nights and sheep for vicodin
The guilt burning in my chest set in
I started sleeping again
I stopped wishing I was dead
Learned to love myself before anyone else
Become more than just a burden
I know I'm more than worthy of your time
I started smoking again
Guess I missed coughing my
Lungs up every morning
Needed anything to keep my breathing
To prevent my blood from bleeding
I started smoking again
I started loving again
Thought when I lost that will to
Live I could never feel again
I'll give it one more shot and let someone in
I Started loving again
I started loving again
I started loving again
I started loving again
I stopped wishing I was dead
Learned to love myself before anyone else
Become more than just a burden
I know I'm more than worthy of your time
Left my heart in rocky hill and
A whole burning in bed
Needed a distraction from my head
Devil on my shoulder said try this instead
So I started using again
I started sleeping again
Traded late nights and sheep for vicodin
The guilt burning in my chest set in
I started sleeping again
I stopped wishing I was dead
Learned to love myself before anyone else
Become more than just a burden
I know I'm more than worthy of your time
I started smoking again
Guess I missed coughing my
Lungs up every morning
Needed anything to keep my breathing
To prevent my blood from bleeding
I started smoking again
I started loving again
Thought when I lost that will to
Live I could never feel again
I'll give it one more shot and let someone in
I Started loving again
I started loving again
I started loving again
I started loving again
I stopped wishing I was dead
Learned to love myself before anyone else
Become more than just a burden
I know I'm more than worthy of your time
Lyrics submitted by Mellow_Harsher
Using Lyrics as written by Charlie Singer Cameron Boucher
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management
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