This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
A city drenching me in sin
Atop these buildings we’re both sinking as we swim
In our continual condition
You found a way inside my head
And left me hanging by a thread
Gutted out, replaying every line you said, and thinking
"Why can’t I just forget it and why can’t I live without you?"
I wish I held my ground or I could just go back
And disappear from you
I let you in you stole a piece of me
And now I can’t take it, I can't take it
I can't take it back from you again
You carved my body from the inside out
Never hesitated, hesitated
Left me on the boulevard here to bleed
Your eyes had pureness cutting through
They had me breaking my own rules
Assuring me it’s okay
This is different, you know we’re different
I’m such a mess I’ve tried and tried to unlearn your spell
Uncross the line maintain my confidence outside
But this pain it won’t escape me
I let you in you stole a piece of me
And now I can’t take it, I can't take it
I can't take it back from you again
You carved my body from the inside out
Never hesitated, hesitated
Left me on the boulevard here to bleed
(Here to bleed)
A city drenching me in sin
Below these buildings I’m still sinking as I swim
In my continual condition
I’m off the beaten path
Smashing every light I pass
I’m so far away, and the darkness makes me need you
I let you in you stole a piece of me
And now I can’t take it, I can't take it
I can't take it back from you again
You carved my body from the inside out
Never hesitated, hesitated
Left me on the boulevard here to bleed
You left me here to bleed
Atop these buildings we’re both sinking as we swim
In our continual condition
You found a way inside my head
And left me hanging by a thread
Gutted out, replaying every line you said, and thinking
"Why can’t I just forget it and why can’t I live without you?"
I wish I held my ground or I could just go back
And disappear from you
I let you in you stole a piece of me
And now I can’t take it, I can't take it
I can't take it back from you again
You carved my body from the inside out
Never hesitated, hesitated
Left me on the boulevard here to bleed
Your eyes had pureness cutting through
They had me breaking my own rules
Assuring me it’s okay
This is different, you know we’re different
I’m such a mess I’ve tried and tried to unlearn your spell
Uncross the line maintain my confidence outside
But this pain it won’t escape me
I let you in you stole a piece of me
And now I can’t take it, I can't take it
I can't take it back from you again
You carved my body from the inside out
Never hesitated, hesitated
Left me on the boulevard here to bleed
(Here to bleed)
A city drenching me in sin
Below these buildings I’m still sinking as I swim
In my continual condition
I’m off the beaten path
Smashing every light I pass
I’m so far away, and the darkness makes me need you
I let you in you stole a piece of me
And now I can’t take it, I can't take it
I can't take it back from you again
You carved my body from the inside out
Never hesitated, hesitated
Left me on the boulevard here to bleed
You left me here to bleed
Lyrics submitted by gonesovereign
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