@[Diderik:33655] "Your a holiday!" Was a popular term used in the 50s/60s to compliment someone on their all around. For example, not only are they beautiful, but they are fun and kind too ... just an all around "holiday".
I think your first comment is closer to being accurate. The singer/song writers state "Millions of eyes can see, yet why am i so blind!? When the someone else is me, its unkind its unkind". I believe hes referring to the girl toying with him and using him. He wants something deeper with her, thats why he allows himself to be as a puppet (even though for her fun and games) as long as it makes her happy. But he knows deep down that she doesnt really want to be serious with him and thats what makes him.
I know how it feels to feel alone
The king of my own fears, I never leave the throne
And I've been searching for a place inside my soul
Where all my demons can't find me when I go
"Pull it together," they say
So I keep hoping for better days
I'd be lying if I said that I was fine
Cause I feel pain sometimes that I cannot describe
So do I raise my fist and curse up at the sky
Or do I close my eyes and realize, that's just life?
I know how it feels to lose control
The weight inside myself is not always my own
And I am broken, where I'll end up I don't know
But maybe that's the point, so I trust in you alone
I'd be lying if I said that I was fine
Cause I feel pain sometimes that I cannot describe
So do I raise my fist and curse up at the sky
Or do I close my eyes and realize, that's just life?
I'm holding onto hope as I turn the page
And I'm praying there is peace to be found in the pain
Tell me that tomorrow won't be the same
And tell me that this is just a season and my story doesn't end this way
I'd be lying if I said that I was fine
Cause I feel pain sometimes that I cannot describe
So do I raise my fists and curse up at the sky
Or do I close my eyes and realize, that's just life?
The king of my own fears, I never leave the throne
And I've been searching for a place inside my soul
Where all my demons can't find me when I go
"Pull it together," they say
So I keep hoping for better days
I'd be lying if I said that I was fine
Cause I feel pain sometimes that I cannot describe
So do I raise my fist and curse up at the sky
Or do I close my eyes and realize, that's just life?
I know how it feels to lose control
The weight inside myself is not always my own
And I am broken, where I'll end up I don't know
But maybe that's the point, so I trust in you alone
I'd be lying if I said that I was fine
Cause I feel pain sometimes that I cannot describe
So do I raise my fist and curse up at the sky
Or do I close my eyes and realize, that's just life?
I'm holding onto hope as I turn the page
And I'm praying there is peace to be found in the pain
Tell me that tomorrow won't be the same
And tell me that this is just a season and my story doesn't end this way
I'd be lying if I said that I was fine
Cause I feel pain sometimes that I cannot describe
So do I raise my fists and curse up at the sky
Or do I close my eyes and realize, that's just life?
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