This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I wish that everyone I knew was dead
So that I'd never have to pick up the phone
I just wanna be naked
And masturbate all day at home
California dreamin'
Oh my heart just started screamin'
I think I want to be alive
I wish I lived on top of the sunset
Yeah, 'cause Hollywood you know my type
I'll get stoned all night with Lana
Half in and half out of the light
Ooh, it's California dreamin'
Yeah, ooh, oh
Oh, my heart just started screamin'
I think I wanna be alive
I can feel it too
So what am I waiting for?
I'm afraid of you
It's just I'm not that good of a person
But I might be enough for you
I'm gonna move to California
I'm gonna melt into the sand
Slow dance with Elizabeth Taylor
And Audrey
Bum a cigarette from Cary Grant
Now New York you know I love you
Because you made me who I am
Which is not that good of a person
I need to feel something again
I can feel it too
So what am I waiting for?
I'm afraid of you
It's just I'm not that good of a person
But I might be enough for you
And I got enough love for two
I can feel it too
I'm afraid of you
It's just I'm not that good of a person
But I might be enough for you
So that I'd never have to pick up the phone
I just wanna be naked
And masturbate all day at home
California dreamin'
Oh my heart just started screamin'
I think I want to be alive
I wish I lived on top of the sunset
Yeah, 'cause Hollywood you know my type
I'll get stoned all night with Lana
Half in and half out of the light
Ooh, it's California dreamin'
Yeah, ooh, oh
Oh, my heart just started screamin'
I think I wanna be alive
I can feel it too
So what am I waiting for?
I'm afraid of you
It's just I'm not that good of a person
But I might be enough for you
I'm gonna move to California
I'm gonna melt into the sand
Slow dance with Elizabeth Taylor
And Audrey
Bum a cigarette from Cary Grant
Now New York you know I love you
Because you made me who I am
Which is not that good of a person
I need to feel something again
I can feel it too
So what am I waiting for?
I'm afraid of you
It's just I'm not that good of a person
But I might be enough for you
And I got enough love for two
I can feel it too
I'm afraid of you
It's just I'm not that good of a person
But I might be enough for you
Lyrics submitted by Lashley1337, edited by BlueDiamondx3
Serotonia Lyrics as written by Rich Meyer Johnny Stevens
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Songtrust Ave, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
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