This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I woke up and got out of bed
Mumbling as I couldn't shake this feeling
Something's gone, can't figure out what
Suddenly I realize what's missing
Oh my problems all went away
They've always been a part of every meeting
Someone took them, now I'm ok
Trying, but impossible to reach them
I was running round in circles
Way back when I used to care
They all told me ''You won't find it''
I shook my head but now I'm there
Forfeit the contest
No weight upon my chest
Now I'm sleeping through the night
And now I know it's my own choice
And I owe it all to them
My boys
Some days don't know where to begin
It started when I tried to get some sleep and
Angst came by said "Hi, let me in"
I used to need someone to keep me breathing
Oh diaper change is paining my wrist
It's even harder getting any sleep now
Got no angst, got nothing to lose
My blondes are giving me another reason
I was running round in circles
Way back when I used to care
They all told me ''You won't find it''
I shook my head but now I'm there
Forfeit the contest
No weight upon my chest
Now I'm sleeping through the night
And now I know it's my own choice
I was running round in circles
Way back when I used to care
They all told me ''You won't find it''
I shook my head but now I'm there
Forfeit the contest
No weight upon my chest
Now I'm sleeping through the night
And now I know it's my own choice
And I owe it all to them
My boys
Mumbling as I couldn't shake this feeling
Something's gone, can't figure out what
Suddenly I realize what's missing
Oh my problems all went away
They've always been a part of every meeting
Someone took them, now I'm ok
Trying, but impossible to reach them
I was running round in circles
Way back when I used to care
They all told me ''You won't find it''
I shook my head but now I'm there
Forfeit the contest
No weight upon my chest
Now I'm sleeping through the night
And now I know it's my own choice
And I owe it all to them
My boys
Some days don't know where to begin
It started when I tried to get some sleep and
Angst came by said "Hi, let me in"
I used to need someone to keep me breathing
Oh diaper change is paining my wrist
It's even harder getting any sleep now
Got no angst, got nothing to lose
My blondes are giving me another reason
I was running round in circles
Way back when I used to care
They all told me ''You won't find it''
I shook my head but now I'm there
Forfeit the contest
No weight upon my chest
Now I'm sleeping through the night
And now I know it's my own choice
I was running round in circles
Way back when I used to care
They all told me ''You won't find it''
I shook my head but now I'm there
Forfeit the contest
No weight upon my chest
Now I'm sleeping through the night
And now I know it's my own choice
And I owe it all to them
My boys
Lyrics submitted by Marinezi
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