This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
What If I had 100 million dollars
I fuck, some fuck, fuck up some comma
What if I did fuck Madonna
What if I had two bitches at once with no drama
What if the whole world believed in Obama?
What if Bill Clinton had never got head?
Would we pay attention to real fucking issues instead
What if Pac wasn't dead
And the thunder and rain
What if it all was champagne
If my mama was healthy
Like what if there wasn't no pain
What if these rappers could actually find their own lane
What if there wasn't the same, what if I did my own thing
Really, said fuck it and went against the grain
What if the world was crazy
And we was the only ones sane
I don't know I'm just saying
Just some ideas I had on my brain
What if I couldn't lose
What if you couldn't win
What if you couldn't stop me
What would you do then
What would you do then
What would you do
What if I sold my soul
What if I lost control
What if I blew these M's
What if I let it go
What if I let it go
What would you do?
What if you never grew up
What if you never got old
What if you never fell off
And rappers who had it just never got cold
What if it wasn't no cops
What if it wasn't no haters
What if the Super Bowl ever came back to the Raiders
If Kobe woulda left the Lakers
What if my homies was all livin' lavish
Pockets and bellies the fattest
Enjoying all that we can manage
What if we all took advantage
Of everything life had to hand us
All lived in mansions
Money for stashin'
All had unlimited credit transactions
Sometimes I feel it can happen
If it's been imagined, up in my head
What if the schools were free and we ain't have to pay for college
What if the fake shit ain't get not acknowledged
What if snitches all stayed in silence
What if instead of throwing salt
We traded guidance
What if my smile was made of diamonds
Iono
Thought I let you know where my state of mind is
That's all
What if I couldn't lose
What if you couldn't win
What if you couldn't stop me
What would you do then
What would you do then
What would you do
What if I sold my soul
What if I lost control
What if I blew these M's
What if I let it go
What if I let it go
What would you do?
What if the game didn't care I was white
Would I still be selling out shows every night
Would they all believe in the hype
Regardless of image
I'm askin' would people still love me despite
I'd still be right here in these shoes 'cause I fit 'em I worked for this life yeah
Three hundred and sixty five nights, eleven years straight
Let 'em debate
We finally broke through
But it's far worse to happen never than late
So settle it straight
I worked for years and studied the game
And respect for art, will always come first
Before money & fame
What if I didn't grow up in the culture
What if Gerald was really a vulture
Wouldn't that be insane?
But, fuck that shit though it's not in my veins
What if the fake ones died
And only the real survived
Who do you think would make it
Take a look now you might be surprised
What if I couldn't lose
What if you couldn't win
What if you couldn't stop me
What would you do then
What would you do then
What would you do
What if I sold my soul
What if I lost control
What if I blew these M's
What if I let it go
What if I let it go
What would you do?
I fuck, some fuck, fuck up some comma
What if I did fuck Madonna
What if I had two bitches at once with no drama
What if the whole world believed in Obama?
What if Bill Clinton had never got head?
Would we pay attention to real fucking issues instead
What if Pac wasn't dead
And the thunder and rain
What if it all was champagne
If my mama was healthy
Like what if there wasn't no pain
What if these rappers could actually find their own lane
What if there wasn't the same, what if I did my own thing
Really, said fuck it and went against the grain
What if the world was crazy
And we was the only ones sane
I don't know I'm just saying
Just some ideas I had on my brain
What if I couldn't lose
What if you couldn't win
What if you couldn't stop me
What would you do then
What would you do then
What would you do
What if I sold my soul
What if I lost control
What if I blew these M's
What if I let it go
What if I let it go
What would you do?
What if you never grew up
What if you never got old
What if you never fell off
And rappers who had it just never got cold
What if it wasn't no cops
What if it wasn't no haters
What if the Super Bowl ever came back to the Raiders
If Kobe woulda left the Lakers
What if my homies was all livin' lavish
Pockets and bellies the fattest
Enjoying all that we can manage
What if we all took advantage
Of everything life had to hand us
All lived in mansions
Money for stashin'
All had unlimited credit transactions
Sometimes I feel it can happen
If it's been imagined, up in my head
What if the schools were free and we ain't have to pay for college
What if the fake shit ain't get not acknowledged
What if snitches all stayed in silence
What if instead of throwing salt
We traded guidance
What if my smile was made of diamonds
Iono
Thought I let you know where my state of mind is
That's all
What if I couldn't lose
What if you couldn't win
What if you couldn't stop me
What would you do then
What would you do then
What would you do
What if I sold my soul
What if I lost control
What if I blew these M's
What if I let it go
What if I let it go
What would you do?
What if the game didn't care I was white
Would I still be selling out shows every night
Would they all believe in the hype
Regardless of image
I'm askin' would people still love me despite
I'd still be right here in these shoes 'cause I fit 'em I worked for this life yeah
Three hundred and sixty five nights, eleven years straight
Let 'em debate
We finally broke through
But it's far worse to happen never than late
So settle it straight
I worked for years and studied the game
And respect for art, will always come first
Before money & fame
What if I didn't grow up in the culture
What if Gerald was really a vulture
Wouldn't that be insane?
But, fuck that shit though it's not in my veins
What if the fake ones died
And only the real survived
Who do you think would make it
Take a look now you might be surprised
What if I couldn't lose
What if you couldn't win
What if you couldn't stop me
What would you do then
What would you do then
What would you do
What if I sold my soul
What if I lost control
What if I blew these M's
What if I let it go
What if I let it go
What would you do?
Lyrics submitted by Mellow_Harsher
What If Lyrics as written by Gerald Gillum Christoph Reiner Andersson
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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