I am every person that you've ever ignored.
I am the flamming bag of dogshit on your porch.
Used to think i was a savior, a part of a cause.
Now see I am nothing no nothing at all.
I am every reason that you scream all these words.
I am every chorus, I am every verse.
I'll never let you feel done, you'll always be haunted.
I will keep you fighting
It's not what I wanted
It's not what I wanted
Its not what I...

I am all the bills that they slide under your door.
I am the bleeding heart beating under your floor.
move out! move on!
I think i wanted to live like this.
I think i'm done with being ignored.

But there's still empty cups and cracks on my apartment floor.
I'll let conversations bleed through my front door.
The heated kettle screaming out I need to stop what I started.
Things have changed

It's not what I wanted
It's not what I wanted
It's not what I wanted
It's not what I ...


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    This is about how a relationship has gone bad and the view that she has about him now because of it.

    Andywuzhereon January 29, 2018   Link

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