This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
It's so relieving to show my ray
Beam of belief in identity
It's not deceiving to be this way
I came to show you my sack
The things that you do with your attitude
I'm awkward, I'm chipper, I'm random dude
The picture, I like it, so don't be rude
We all came here just to fab
I'm in love with the feeling that I'm loved
Not alone, so alone
Take my money take all that I've got
All that I've got
And I'm daydreaming of a taste I can't hold back
Only I share with the lesson, I'm mocking it
Letting the pear flip its shape
Top of the tumor its rumored I'm neutered
A fabulous rape in the taint
I'm in love with the feeling that I'm loved
Not alone, so alone
Stroke my ego turn me into God
I am god
Expecting the people to live in your head
If you knew what to do, then you'd do what you said
Proxy the awesome and seek the deletion
Of reaper repeating submission face
Opt for the option to stop this exhaustion
And breathe through the tube of civility
The end is, the end is, the end is, the end of days
And we can get it in the open
Tell me all your secrets
Show me how to make you mine
'Cause you got me feeling nervous
Know I don't deserve it
But you're giving me the signs
I bet you never saw me coming
But I've had my eye on you for miles
Just had to get it in the open
Take off all your clothes and
Baby let me blow your mind
Baby let me blow your mind
'Cause I need it the most, so baby let blow your mind
I'll keep hiding in this cul de sac
Day dreaming of a taste I can't hold back
I have something important too
I'm in love with the feeling that I'm loved
Not alone, not alone
Stroke my ego turn me into God
Is there a God?
Beam of belief in identity
It's not deceiving to be this way
I came to show you my sack
The things that you do with your attitude
I'm awkward, I'm chipper, I'm random dude
The picture, I like it, so don't be rude
We all came here just to fab
I'm in love with the feeling that I'm loved
Not alone, so alone
Take my money take all that I've got
All that I've got
And I'm daydreaming of a taste I can't hold back
Only I share with the lesson, I'm mocking it
Letting the pear flip its shape
Top of the tumor its rumored I'm neutered
A fabulous rape in the taint
I'm in love with the feeling that I'm loved
Not alone, so alone
Stroke my ego turn me into God
I am god
Expecting the people to live in your head
If you knew what to do, then you'd do what you said
Proxy the awesome and seek the deletion
Of reaper repeating submission face
Opt for the option to stop this exhaustion
And breathe through the tube of civility
The end is, the end is, the end is, the end of days
And we can get it in the open
Tell me all your secrets
Show me how to make you mine
'Cause you got me feeling nervous
Know I don't deserve it
But you're giving me the signs
I bet you never saw me coming
But I've had my eye on you for miles
Just had to get it in the open
Take off all your clothes and
Baby let me blow your mind
Baby let me blow your mind
'Cause I need it the most, so baby let blow your mind
I'll keep hiding in this cul de sac
Day dreaming of a taste I can't hold back
I have something important too
I'm in love with the feeling that I'm loved
Not alone, not alone
Stroke my ego turn me into God
Is there a God?
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