I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
You track the doubts of my soul
Until you found it
The darkened room locked away
I let you in
You looked inside then you turned away
My makeshift savior
He left me right here in my chains
But still I whisper
Still I call you
I never wanted you to see
The darkest part of me
I knew you'd run away
I waited, but you never came
So afraid to be alone
I tried to let you go
And still I find you lost inside the darkest part of me
It's my decent to know your pain
It's watching all I believed fade away
Half traitors and fools
Half beggars and thieves
Which mask will you choose
What is underneath
I never wanted you to see
The darkest part of me
I knew you'd run away
I waited but you never came
So afraid to be alone
I tried to let you go
And still I find you lost inside the darkest part of me
And out of the black state of your perfect life
And out of the darkness that you need to hide
It covers you, it spills over you
I never wanted you to see
The darkest part of me
I knew you'd run away
I waited, but you never came
So afraid to be alone
I tried to let you go
And still I find you lost inside the darkest part of me
Until you found it
The darkened room locked away
I let you in
You looked inside then you turned away
My makeshift savior
He left me right here in my chains
But still I whisper
Still I call you
I never wanted you to see
The darkest part of me
I knew you'd run away
I waited, but you never came
So afraid to be alone
I tried to let you go
And still I find you lost inside the darkest part of me
It's my decent to know your pain
It's watching all I believed fade away
Half traitors and fools
Half beggars and thieves
Which mask will you choose
What is underneath
I never wanted you to see
The darkest part of me
I knew you'd run away
I waited but you never came
So afraid to be alone
I tried to let you go
And still I find you lost inside the darkest part of me
And out of the black state of your perfect life
And out of the darkness that you need to hide
It covers you, it spills over you
I never wanted you to see
The darkest part of me
I knew you'd run away
I waited, but you never came
So afraid to be alone
I tried to let you go
And still I find you lost inside the darkest part of me
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The person who for the time being I'm going to call him. He fell in love with a person and he decides to show that person what he really is and he didn't want the other to see the darkest part of them but he did and what he feared has come true and his lover has run away from them. That's why he didn't want them to see him for who he really was but it is evitable and now he is slowly turning insane because he has lost this person
I at first that this was about God, which I later discovered lyrics like "makeshift savior" and "I tried to let you go". Red is a Christian band so with that considered, what people have been saying on this forum is correct. this man was in love with a woman, so much so that he trusted her enough to show her his tortured past. He didn't realize it'd drive her away. whether that darkest part is being abusive to women, having a bad habit like drugs or alcohol, or not being fully connected with Jesus, there's no telling . but we know that it's about driving a woman away when revealing something deep inside yourself.
This song is like someone was in love so he/she told their lover their darkest secrets and their lover spurred them but yet he/she is still calling out for their lover to understand them...
I think this is about showing the person you love all your scars, the darkest parts of your soul and all your flaws and being traumatized when they cannot accept you. Their reaction is that you have lost them now completely. You cannot find anymore any trace of the relationship you once had with them, cause they can't get past the ideals they had in place for you that you have now shattered.
He is upset because hes shown a friend his true self and they are frightened by him and end up running away from him.
I relate to this song way to much:')
My interpretation of this song is the person is afraid to show his true self because he would fear that person he loves will walk away and I can relate to this song in many ways