The Run and Go

As a person who struggles with mental problems, I know that one of the hardest things is controlling myself. I have a good friend, who is my shoulder to lean on. I feel like this story is about that kind of person. When you are up at three in the morning contemplating suicide you feel like you don't want to burden that person, but when you are facing your past, you don't have a problem telling them that you need them to stay.

You could take it secularly and say that it's a person who is plagued with depression and doesn't want to bother the one person who will understand with all their problems until they truely need them in a very very dark place.

Or the way I take it is he doesn't want to go to God with all of his problems, similar to Fake You Out. He wants to pretend like it's all fine and put on a happy façade except it's not. He's plagued with all these demons and the guilt that he "has killed a man" which is Jesus. He took the life of a truly perfect man in order for him to love. He doesn't feel like God is close because of the "one way conversations" of prayer. But in the end he knows that the Rock is there for him to anchor on and decides he needs Him to stay with him through the night.

I am also a person with mental problems, and I find this song super relatable. I feel like it's about being caught between that guilt of burdening your loved ones with your problems, not wanting to trouble them, but also needing them desperately. At least that's what I get from the lines

"You'll have to watch me struggle From several rooms away But tonight I'll need you to stay"

It's wanting to push them away to protect them, but also needing their presence.

The rest of the song I feel depicts the descent into a breakdown. One of those danger nights where you try to stop the bad thoughts but they come anyway, and you just have to ride it out until it's over. Reminds me of a panic attack: once it starts, no one can make it stop, and you have to just wait it out. However, having simply the presence of a loved one nearby makes it so much better. And I think that sums up the whole song: sometimes people can't help us through an episode, but their simple presence nearby is reassuring and necessary, even if we feel guilty for making them stay.

Also, on the topic of religious themes: I think part of what makes this song great is that the person being addressed could be anyone. God, a lover, or a friend.

Obviously, he has depression and is suicidal, but he doesn't want to burden anyone with it.

"Don't want to call you in the night time, don't want to give you all my pieces. Don't want to hand you all my troubles, don't want to give you all my demons. You'll have to watch me struggle from several rooms away..." it's him pushing people away. He doesn't want people to know everything about him, because in the past, he gave them all his pieces, and that person left, so now he keeps it all inside out of fear someone will do it again.

"But tonight, I need you to stay." This time, he needs them to stay. He needs them to stay because he has a particularly bad feeling about what he might do, or will do, if they leave.

"I've killed a man and all I know is I am on the run and go" I have killed a man could be two things, but they are both him. He either committed suicide, or he killed the person he used to be, or could have been.

I think this is about the play romeo and juilet because Romeo kills tybalt and he goes to his dad saying he doesnt know what to do and then he runs to juliet and you know..spend the night with her. Also Romeo says he is on the run and go because if they catch him he will get banish or otherwise die so thats why.

Schizophrenia has taken over. I can't take them in my own are the people who are staff at the hospital. He belives he killed a man but that man was actually himself. You'll have to watch me Struggle from several rooms away to me means they have him in solitary on meds and the other personalities are watching him take the blame. His brain/imagination/mental well being is on the run and go. He doesn't want his other personalities to help him out of the situation but he wants them there just in case. Or it could be a priest as in last rites or whatever that is.The do do do do's I can imagine him laughing and skipping around with The others over The body of The "man" he killed. Cold nights under siege of accusations .. someone is grilling him to tell what happened or his personalities are trying to go over questions and answers to get them out of there. The line that got for me hooked on this song is the cerebral thunder one way conversations It's the panic and the abandonment of ship from the others or the after shocks from electric shock. And he knows the staff can't see these other people so he looks like he's talking to himself OR staff or cop is badgering him and he's overwhelmed or hasn't finished conferring with the others yet to get the words out. YIKES! Now my brain hurts LoL