You were like a drug to me and I remember vividly the last
few things you said
Waitin' in a prison room, review the taste of crooked mood again
universally apparent
Shakin' like a man should never shake
I pulled a coin out from my breast
pretending it could change you
If my Captain ever died I'd be right here directing my attempt,
pursuin' absolution
I am not me
I am not me
Fair to me and fair to you
I turned around and left I guess that I
assumed that you would beg me
And from the shadow to the light
the God I know could not be tired, but I
am such a separate story
Stupid is as stupid does and stupidly I pulled the plug on you
Finally stopped beating
Stupid is as stupid does and somehow you'll
forgive the both of us
and the load that we still carry
I am not me
I am not me
I am not me


Lyrics submitted by aic4ever

Fur Stop Caring song meanings
Add your thoughts

5 Comments

sort form View by:
  • 0
    General Commentpretty sure it's "If my captain never died"
    fangbutton June 21, 2012   Link
  • 0
    General CommentFirstly, what a great song.
    I'm sure it is "If my captain ever died"
    but when I first heard the lineIi thought it was followed by
    "I'd be right here, directing my lieutenant, pursuing absolution."
    I haven't seen this suggested anywhere else but it would make sense.
    Listen again, he doesn't over pronounce the word, but i'm certain Andy says lieutenant.
    zeffyon July 18, 2012   Link
  • 0
    My Interpretation"If my Captain ever died I'd be right here directing my attempt, pursuin' absolution"

    I believe "my Captain" is a metaphor for his conscience here. If he had lost his conscience, he would be trying to save himself from punishment by begging and showing off some religious change of heart.

    Instead, like a man, he sits to accept the consequences of his action.

    "Fair to me and fair to you..."
    ComradeTikion March 28, 2013   Link
  • 0
    My InterpretationI believe "my Captain" is a metaphor for his conscience, here.

    "If my Captain ever died I'd be right here directing my attempt, pursuin' absolution."
    Without a conscience, he would be pleading for forgiveness and showing off a religious turnaround in order to save himself.

    Instead, he faces the consequences of his action like a man.
    "Fair to me and fair to you..."

    If only his wife could recognize this bravery and acknowledge the man she is losing...
    ComradeTikion March 28, 2013   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI'm pretty sure it's "if my Captain never died" as his captain died in Gasoline family trying to rescue the protagonist from the fire he started with the matches.
    benscottion November 11, 2014   Link

Add your thoughts

Log in now to tell us what you think this song means.

Don’t have an account? Create an account with SongMeanings to post comments, submit lyrics, and more. It’s super easy, we promise!

Back to top
explain