This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I remember how I used to feel
Things just seemed so sweet
Now they don't
And it's so hard to see
I remember how I used to be
Now it's all just changed
And I'm cold in the grave
It's like I won't ever be the same, no
Now I'm alone
But I used to have it all
But now, I'm slipping and I'm falling down
Them days seem so close
But somehow they've gone so far away
See something just ain't right
See your government kill others
For a wage that's how we waste life
I bleed, you bleed, we bleed together
Getting lost up in the system
That teaches us to be separate
Easier and ignorant when we're locked up in sections
As one, we're strong, hold on, never let up
I'm fed up living in this world
Where they tell us we're nothing
Without money to show and to represent us
But damn my skin color
Cause we're still brothers and sisters
Don't let them tell you any different.
I'm still trapped in this system
I'm locked in this prison
We're still trapped in this system
I'm locked in this prison
But I used to have it all
But now, I'm slipping and I'm falling down
Them days seem so close
But somehow they've gone so far away
But I used to have it all
But now, I'm slipping and I'm falling down
Them days seem so close
But somehow they've gone so far away
But I used to have it all
But now, I'm slipping and I'm falling down
Them days seem so close
But somehow they've gone so far away
Things just seemed so sweet
Now they don't
And it's so hard to see
I remember how I used to be
Now it's all just changed
And I'm cold in the grave
It's like I won't ever be the same, no
Now I'm alone
But I used to have it all
But now, I'm slipping and I'm falling down
Them days seem so close
But somehow they've gone so far away
See something just ain't right
See your government kill others
For a wage that's how we waste life
I bleed, you bleed, we bleed together
Getting lost up in the system
That teaches us to be separate
Easier and ignorant when we're locked up in sections
As one, we're strong, hold on, never let up
I'm fed up living in this world
Where they tell us we're nothing
Without money to show and to represent us
But damn my skin color
Cause we're still brothers and sisters
Don't let them tell you any different.
I'm still trapped in this system
I'm locked in this prison
We're still trapped in this system
I'm locked in this prison
But I used to have it all
But now, I'm slipping and I'm falling down
Them days seem so close
But somehow they've gone so far away
But I used to have it all
But now, I'm slipping and I'm falling down
Them days seem so close
But somehow they've gone so far away
But I used to have it all
But now, I'm slipping and I'm falling down
Them days seem so close
But somehow they've gone so far away
Lyrics submitted by friendlymancub
I Used to Have It All Lyrics as written by Francis Eg White Michael Stafford
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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