This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
And if I take a different tack
Well then forgive me if the long way round
Confuses up the point until you're numb enough to hear
That you're using the anointing oil like it's sacramental beer
And don't blame heaven or hell
You have to look to yourself
And nobody else will lift a light to make you see
Don't got to learn a damn thing
Part of being free
And I realize
When I buck my place
It's my feet but it's their race
And I don't run unless you try to chase me
And I don't leave unless you offer me a stay
And I won't fight unless I'm cornered or if I'm after what I want
What that is I wish that I could say
So forgive me or forget you
If you think you cannot bear
Believe me life won't let you
If you blink you shall not fare
But should you get the chance
Try to make for the fence
It's a subtle dance we do
To stay in from the cold
And the cleverest ones
Get to be real old
I may struggle
I may complain
But I'm just trying to grab at the reins
And I don't run unless you try to chase me
And I don't leave until you offer me a stay
And I don't fight unless I'm cornered or if I'm after what I want
What that is I wish that I could say
I don't run unless you try to chase me
And I don't leave until you offer me a stay
And I don't fight unless I'm cornered or if I'm after what I want
What that is I wish that I could say
And if I'm wondering where to go well then forgive me if I don't know
Well then forgive me if the long way round
Confuses up the point until you're numb enough to hear
That you're using the anointing oil like it's sacramental beer
And don't blame heaven or hell
You have to look to yourself
And nobody else will lift a light to make you see
Don't got to learn a damn thing
Part of being free
And I realize
When I buck my place
It's my feet but it's their race
And I don't run unless you try to chase me
And I don't leave unless you offer me a stay
And I won't fight unless I'm cornered or if I'm after what I want
What that is I wish that I could say
So forgive me or forget you
If you think you cannot bear
Believe me life won't let you
If you blink you shall not fare
But should you get the chance
Try to make for the fence
It's a subtle dance we do
To stay in from the cold
And the cleverest ones
Get to be real old
I may struggle
I may complain
But I'm just trying to grab at the reins
And I don't run unless you try to chase me
And I don't leave until you offer me a stay
And I don't fight unless I'm cornered or if I'm after what I want
What that is I wish that I could say
I don't run unless you try to chase me
And I don't leave until you offer me a stay
And I don't fight unless I'm cornered or if I'm after what I want
What that is I wish that I could say
And if I'm wondering where to go well then forgive me if I don't know
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