This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Looking, looking nervous
Their whole purpose to criticize us
Indicate us on music, this world's a circus
where murderous written language is rap
Initiation to courtrooms exhibit our DATs
Cuffing our wrist back, slapped with prosecutions
Guilty!
Embedded into the minds of kids, women and ticking
Time bombs, warned to bite my tongue
Fuck that! Ain't this America?
Where it's cool to shake your Fuck and show
Prostitutes on camera?
The moment I want to speak on what I'm seeing
Causing violence, sirens approach my crib
Pig soldiers creepin' in silence
With science that I'm a rapper!
Minus the glitter that host the glamour to suck
Moist shit on manufacturers
Then they say we rap too much!
Freedom of speech told me to speak as I please
(Fuck y'all)
You ever heard of such?
Censorship should tied up, thrown in the trunk
Get spread across the desert, get cut in bitty chunks
Fuck this you motherfuckers, come at me!
We free to say a lot of shit
Then it's used against me!
Your word against mine, and mine about two breaths away
From havin' your bitch suck my cock live on stage!
Fuck this, fuck that! (Fuck this across the map)
Fuck that, fuck this! (Self-righteous fucks, we live this)
Your word against mine, and mine about two breaths away
From havin' your bitch suck my cock live on stage!
Hip-hop ain't kill your boy and
Rap ain't rape your daughter
And this music ain't bring that shit that sniff
Across the border
We in a world where everyone just walkin' with
Giant fingers
Pointing in all directions where we haven't
Invented mirrors
Guns as common as light fixtures
TV is pretty pictures that show reality
So what we live is always tinkered
I swore on my little bro that's locked down
At sixteen that I won't water down my Fuck
Fuck rap, I'm here to blow steam
Whoa! Look at 'em now! Cryin' to the extreme
'Cause shit shot up the prom
So they blaming it on the music scene and
The teens don't give a Fuck 'cause they parents
Don't understand
Fuck music get in they hands,
Started wildin' and speakin' slang
Letting they pants hang off they Fuck
Smokin' shit and playa hatin'
Relatin' to shit and shit so they request it
At the station
Now the whole nation is watching with redden bacher
And hot pockets
Swanson TV dinners, few drinks and false assumptions!
Fuck this you motherfuckers, come at me!
We free to say a lot of shit
Then it's used against me!
Your word against mine, and mine about two breaths away
From havin' your bitch suck my cock live on stage!
Fuck this, fuck that! (Fuck this across the map)
Fuck that, fuck this! (Self-righteous fucks, we live this)
Your word against mine, and mine about two breaths away
From havin' your bitch suck my cock live on stage!
(Fuck this across the map)
(Self-righteous Fucks, we live this)
Shut the fuck up!
Their whole purpose to criticize us
Indicate us on music, this world's a circus
where murderous written language is rap
Initiation to courtrooms exhibit our DATs
Cuffing our wrist back, slapped with prosecutions
Guilty!
Embedded into the minds of kids, women and ticking
Time bombs, warned to bite my tongue
Fuck that! Ain't this America?
Where it's cool to shake your Fuck and show
Prostitutes on camera?
The moment I want to speak on what I'm seeing
Causing violence, sirens approach my crib
Pig soldiers creepin' in silence
With science that I'm a rapper!
Minus the glitter that host the glamour to suck
Moist shit on manufacturers
Then they say we rap too much!
Freedom of speech told me to speak as I please
(Fuck y'all)
You ever heard of such?
Censorship should tied up, thrown in the trunk
Get spread across the desert, get cut in bitty chunks
Fuck this you motherfuckers, come at me!
We free to say a lot of shit
Then it's used against me!
Your word against mine, and mine about two breaths away
From havin' your bitch suck my cock live on stage!
Fuck this, fuck that! (Fuck this across the map)
Fuck that, fuck this! (Self-righteous fucks, we live this)
Your word against mine, and mine about two breaths away
From havin' your bitch suck my cock live on stage!
Hip-hop ain't kill your boy and
Rap ain't rape your daughter
And this music ain't bring that shit that sniff
Across the border
We in a world where everyone just walkin' with
Giant fingers
Pointing in all directions where we haven't
Invented mirrors
Guns as common as light fixtures
TV is pretty pictures that show reality
So what we live is always tinkered
I swore on my little bro that's locked down
At sixteen that I won't water down my Fuck
Fuck rap, I'm here to blow steam
Whoa! Look at 'em now! Cryin' to the extreme
'Cause shit shot up the prom
So they blaming it on the music scene and
The teens don't give a Fuck 'cause they parents
Don't understand
Fuck music get in they hands,
Started wildin' and speakin' slang
Letting they pants hang off they Fuck
Smokin' shit and playa hatin'
Relatin' to shit and shit so they request it
At the station
Now the whole nation is watching with redden bacher
And hot pockets
Swanson TV dinners, few drinks and false assumptions!
Fuck this you motherfuckers, come at me!
We free to say a lot of shit
Then it's used against me!
Your word against mine, and mine about two breaths away
From havin' your bitch suck my cock live on stage!
Fuck this, fuck that! (Fuck this across the map)
Fuck that, fuck this! (Self-righteous fucks, we live this)
Your word against mine, and mine about two breaths away
From havin' your bitch suck my cock live on stage!
(Fuck this across the map)
(Self-righteous Fucks, we live this)
Shut the fuck up!
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