This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Leave it alone
We finished this up like an hour ago
So leave me alone
I planted it once, just assumed it would grow
Even though, when I think
Its replicated fear throws me off for years
So take me or don't
Three hour drive but we got nowhere close
Read what I wrote
You tuned the sound out to make sure I know
Even though I can't see, I feel it's always haunting me
Kicking out my feet
Ruining everything
So take me alone
Cause if it's not with you, I've got no place to go
Your brags turn to boasts
And into fights lasting hours about your dad's ghost
Although you can't say it yet
It's never been the same
And it looks to stay that way
It feels like you're okay
When I was a fire I turned into ice
Melting off my last feverish highs
And I leapt through the sunshine and into the night
Singing songs of my healthiest fears
So take me or don't
I've built up this kingdom you'd hopefully loathe
If we end up alone
A plague on my head and a curse in my home
We finished this up like an hour ago
So leave me alone
I planted it once, just assumed it would grow
Even though, when I think
Its replicated fear throws me off for years
So take me or don't
Three hour drive but we got nowhere close
Read what I wrote
You tuned the sound out to make sure I know
Even though I can't see, I feel it's always haunting me
Kicking out my feet
Ruining everything
So take me alone
Cause if it's not with you, I've got no place to go
Your brags turn to boasts
And into fights lasting hours about your dad's ghost
Although you can't say it yet
It's never been the same
And it looks to stay that way
It feels like you're okay
When I was a fire I turned into ice
Melting off my last feverish highs
And I leapt through the sunshine and into the night
Singing songs of my healthiest fears
So take me or don't
I've built up this kingdom you'd hopefully loathe
If we end up alone
A plague on my head and a curse in my home
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The song's probably about Andy telling either Jesus, God or religion in general to leave him alone. The line "And into fights lasting hours about your dad's ghost" probably gives it away.
If there's no heaven, Andy, then where's your grandpa?
Andy's a pastor's child and he might've just had this conversation before. Additionally, the last lines seem to allude to Exodus.
To me, however, this song has a much more personal interpretation. I bought this record a few months back during the concluding phase to a very traumatic relationship I'd been caught in. In the end, after a long period of holding on to an ill and troubled woman, she disappeared without a trace leaving only a handwritten note. To me personally, this song is about trying to move on.
I want her to leave me alone. Yet all sorts of little things remind me of her. The other day I came across a video of her by accident- one I'd never seen before.
I figured the relationship would just grow, but it became so bad and traumatic instead. Having had no closure, I'm frightened at the prospect of a new relationship. Its replicated fear throws me off.
I tried getting in contact with her a few times. She read what I wrote, then decided to ignore me.
I don't see her anymore, but her memory haunts me. A beautiful morning is ruined when I accidentally stumble upon something she left behind.
I was, and am so prepared to be taken along in her troubles. Sometimes it feels like if it's not with her, I've got no place to go.
But in the end, let's face it. After she became this way, it's never be the same. She doesn't need my help; she's doing just fine on her own.
Painful.
@Takemeordont this just broke my heart. Hope things are better now.