This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
No I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to
Blood is getter hotter
Body's getting colder
I've told you once,
I'm the only one who holds her
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to
I look inside of myself,
And try to find someone else
Someone who's willing to die,
Instead of watching you cry for help.
I know that blood will be spilled,
And if you wont, then I will.
My grave will never be filled,
It's either kill or be killed.
So let heaven be told,
That some may come some may go,
Where I'll end up, I don't know.
But I ain't dying alone,
I keep on asking the question,
"Can I be saved by confession?"
You see this blood on my hands at least there's no reaching to Heaven.
I got to pick up the pieces,
I got to bury them deep
And when you look into my eyes
I'll be the last thing you see
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to.
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
No I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to.
Words turned into blood, and the blood keeps on pouring,
From every pour I wipe it up, cause this just could be the moment
Now someone gotta die and now my only opponent
'Cause I won't watch my baby cry,
So I keep on just going.
Am I a man or a beast,
Its mother nature at least
Watch humanity cease,
Cause it's our human disease.
You got to kill when you gotta kill,
Yeah that's what they say.
And I can't go against God's will,
You better pray
'Cause I'm an angel, a demon.
Yeah I'm hell and I'm heaven
I'm everything you couldn't be, now you believe in the devil.
I got to pick up the pieces, I got to bury them deep
And when the dirt hits the coffin
Just go to sleep.
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to.
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
No I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to.
Blood is getter hotter
Body's getting colder
I've told you once,
I'm the only one who holds her
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die
Now that I see
I see you buried
Six feet below.
Another life, goes into the night.
I couldn't let him breathe,
'Cause I didn't wanna die
Now that I see
I see you buried
Six feet below.
It's not alright
Can't you hear me as I cry?
I couldn't let you live,
'Cause I didn't wanna die
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
No I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
So you're gonna have to.
I don't wanna die.
I don't wanna die.
No I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to.
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
No I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to
Blood is getter hotter
Body's getting colder
I've told you once,
I'm the only one who holds her
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to
I look inside of myself,
And try to find someone else
Someone who's willing to die,
Instead of watching you cry for help.
I know that blood will be spilled,
And if you wont, then I will.
My grave will never be filled,
It's either kill or be killed.
So let heaven be told,
That some may come some may go,
Where I'll end up, I don't know.
But I ain't dying alone,
I keep on asking the question,
"Can I be saved by confession?"
You see this blood on my hands at least there's no reaching to Heaven.
I got to pick up the pieces,
I got to bury them deep
And when you look into my eyes
I'll be the last thing you see
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to.
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
No I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to.
Words turned into blood, and the blood keeps on pouring,
From every pour I wipe it up, cause this just could be the moment
Now someone gotta die and now my only opponent
'Cause I won't watch my baby cry,
So I keep on just going.
Am I a man or a beast,
Its mother nature at least
Watch humanity cease,
Cause it's our human disease.
You got to kill when you gotta kill,
Yeah that's what they say.
And I can't go against God's will,
You better pray
'Cause I'm an angel, a demon.
Yeah I'm hell and I'm heaven
I'm everything you couldn't be, now you believe in the devil.
I got to pick up the pieces, I got to bury them deep
And when the dirt hits the coffin
Just go to sleep.
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to.
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
No I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to.
Blood is getter hotter
Body's getting colder
I've told you once,
I'm the only one who holds her
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die
Now that I see
I see you buried
Six feet below.
Another life, goes into the night.
I couldn't let him breathe,
'Cause I didn't wanna die
Now that I see
I see you buried
Six feet below.
It's not alright
Can't you hear me as I cry?
I couldn't let you live,
'Cause I didn't wanna die
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
No I don't wanna die
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
I don't wanna die,
So you're gonna have to.
I don't wanna die.
I don't wanna die.
No I don't wanna die
So you're gonna have to.
Lyrics submitted by vane111391, edited by MonsterKhaos, communism12, NinjaBunny4Ever
I Don't Wanna Die Lyrics as written by Dylan Alvarez Griffin Boice
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