This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I have a little house,
Close to town, but not to the city,
Far from home, but near my family,
No water views, but so close to the sea,
I see, this is how my little life could be.
And I'm filling it with things,
Like furniture that I find on the street,
And all the special things I'd like to eat,
Pictures of people that I'd like to meet,
I'll meet them while I'm orbiting the world,
And it's so pretty, and so lonely.
My little love affairs,
Are all scheduled around the TV guide,
And my sex life has all been plagiarised,
In an attempt to meet a harsh deadline.
I'd like to rent a wife,
Then rent a husband to keep her for life,
The three of us, we could be so happy,
Them with each other, and me with company,
I'll see them off on a flight around the world,
And it's so pretty, and so lonely.
I could just die,
I might just die,
I could just die,
I might just die.
And at my funeral,
They will say: Tom, he was such a nice guy,
He went too early, but he went in style,
They'll play my music and then they will cry.
Then they'll have a little wake,
They'll drink bad wine and there'll be lemon cake,
And my mother's little heart will break,
And she'll say: wait there must be some mistake,
He can't be dead, take me instead.
Oh, but I'm not dead,
They tell me I'm not dead,
And they say that I'm not dead,
And that I won't die for some time.
I'm in my little house,
Just writing little songs to pass the time,
Which, incidentally, is 7:49,
So don't you worry, I'm completely fine, I'm fine,
Don't you worry, I'm completely fine, I'm fine,
Don't you worry, I'm completely fine, I'm fine,
Don't you worry, I'm completely fine, I'm fine,
Don't you worry, I'm completely fine, I'm fine,
I am just so fucking fine.
Close to town, but not to the city,
Far from home, but near my family,
No water views, but so close to the sea,
I see, this is how my little life could be.
And I'm filling it with things,
Like furniture that I find on the street,
And all the special things I'd like to eat,
Pictures of people that I'd like to meet,
I'll meet them while I'm orbiting the world,
And it's so pretty, and so lonely.
My little love affairs,
Are all scheduled around the TV guide,
And my sex life has all been plagiarised,
In an attempt to meet a harsh deadline.
I'd like to rent a wife,
Then rent a husband to keep her for life,
The three of us, we could be so happy,
Them with each other, and me with company,
I'll see them off on a flight around the world,
And it's so pretty, and so lonely.
I could just die,
I might just die,
I could just die,
I might just die.
And at my funeral,
They will say: Tom, he was such a nice guy,
He went too early, but he went in style,
They'll play my music and then they will cry.
Then they'll have a little wake,
They'll drink bad wine and there'll be lemon cake,
And my mother's little heart will break,
And she'll say: wait there must be some mistake,
He can't be dead, take me instead.
Oh, but I'm not dead,
They tell me I'm not dead,
And they say that I'm not dead,
And that I won't die for some time.
I'm in my little house,
Just writing little songs to pass the time,
Which, incidentally, is 7:49,
So don't you worry, I'm completely fine, I'm fine,
Don't you worry, I'm completely fine, I'm fine,
Don't you worry, I'm completely fine, I'm fine,
Don't you worry, I'm completely fine, I'm fine,
Don't you worry, I'm completely fine, I'm fine,
I am just so fucking fine.
Lyrics submitted by Aspirex
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