This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Man this fuckin' bitch
Took off, fuckin' with some, college graduate
Punk ass, Abercrombie wearin' motherfucker
Left me broken hearted in the Chevy
It's all good though, know why?
I got me bitch
Both of us was in the same class in oh two Antioch Nash-Ville,
And I wanted you so bad
That I forgot to mind my manners
Everybody wanted them panties
Every guy was hopin' to land it
We would flirt around and touch hands
Until we fucked around and took Xanex
And that's when you began to drive me bananas
I was in denial it's apparent
You began to lie to your parents
You should know that I can't live
Without you holdin' my name
Now my heart's in control of my brain
And I can't hold it in the lanes
Rollin' down 20 man
With this Jack in my cup, feelin' down on my luck
And I'm doin 120 man
Maybe I'm givin' up, baby I'm givin up
Baby what is happening?
Don't you believe in us? Don't you believe in us?
She said I know you gave me everything
But love is not enough, love is not enough, love is not enough
Used to fuck so much we missed school
You was there when I needed you
I was there when you needed me
We were inseparable
And I was broke with no fuckin' food
You was tough enough to be cool
Skate holes all in my shoes
Dope boys had me confused
I was in love with hip-hop
You was in love with that to
What made it come to a stop
Had to have been the money issue, bitch
And I really miss the rain
I gave you all of my soul and I got left was a key chain
Rollin down 20 man
With this Jack in my cup, feelin' down on my luck
And I'm doin 120 man
Maybe I'm givin' up, baby I'm givin up
Baby what is happening?
Don't you believe in us? Don't you believe in us?
She said I know you gave me everything
But love is not enough, love is not enough, love is not enough
Who the fuck are you fuckin' now
Bet he's always takin' you out
College educated and proud
Me, well I'm just a drop out
Can't really blame you for buggin'
Ain't I the dirt on your rug and
Just a place to wipe your shoes
And give me all your thrown away lovin'
Back to my buzzin' and druggin'
Back to my gutter with nothin'
Back to the rut all of a sudden
cracks in the covenant trust in me
You ain't gotta worry bout sharin' this success with Wayne
Now it's just petty change
But I still feel the pain
Rollin' down 20 man
With this Jack in my cup, feelin' down on my luck
And I'm doin 120 man
Maybe I'm givin' up, baby I'm givin up
Baby what is happening?
Don't you believe in us? Don't you believe in us?
She said I know you gave me everything
But love is not enough, love is not enough, love is not enough
Took off, fuckin' with some, college graduate
Punk ass, Abercrombie wearin' motherfucker
Left me broken hearted in the Chevy
It's all good though, know why?
I got me bitch
Both of us was in the same class in oh two Antioch Nash-Ville,
And I wanted you so bad
That I forgot to mind my manners
Everybody wanted them panties
Every guy was hopin' to land it
We would flirt around and touch hands
Until we fucked around and took Xanex
And that's when you began to drive me bananas
I was in denial it's apparent
You began to lie to your parents
You should know that I can't live
Without you holdin' my name
Now my heart's in control of my brain
And I can't hold it in the lanes
Rollin' down 20 man
With this Jack in my cup, feelin' down on my luck
And I'm doin 120 man
Maybe I'm givin' up, baby I'm givin up
Baby what is happening?
Don't you believe in us? Don't you believe in us?
She said I know you gave me everything
But love is not enough, love is not enough, love is not enough
Used to fuck so much we missed school
You was there when I needed you
I was there when you needed me
We were inseparable
And I was broke with no fuckin' food
You was tough enough to be cool
Skate holes all in my shoes
Dope boys had me confused
I was in love with hip-hop
You was in love with that to
What made it come to a stop
Had to have been the money issue, bitch
And I really miss the rain
I gave you all of my soul and I got left was a key chain
Rollin down 20 man
With this Jack in my cup, feelin' down on my luck
And I'm doin 120 man
Maybe I'm givin' up, baby I'm givin up
Baby what is happening?
Don't you believe in us? Don't you believe in us?
She said I know you gave me everything
But love is not enough, love is not enough, love is not enough
Who the fuck are you fuckin' now
Bet he's always takin' you out
College educated and proud
Me, well I'm just a drop out
Can't really blame you for buggin'
Ain't I the dirt on your rug and
Just a place to wipe your shoes
And give me all your thrown away lovin'
Back to my buzzin' and druggin'
Back to my gutter with nothin'
Back to the rut all of a sudden
cracks in the covenant trust in me
You ain't gotta worry bout sharin' this success with Wayne
Now it's just petty change
But I still feel the pain
Rollin' down 20 man
With this Jack in my cup, feelin' down on my luck
And I'm doin 120 man
Maybe I'm givin' up, baby I'm givin up
Baby what is happening?
Don't you believe in us? Don't you believe in us?
She said I know you gave me everything
But love is not enough, love is not enough, love is not enough
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