This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
well look at this!
I see clearly now
look at this!
Are you feeling now?
happiness...
is seldom found
pop a pill!
I'm so damn happy now
feeling things crawl on me
I need my fix today
this is way beyond me
I can't live without you today
well look at this!
I see colors now
look at this!
people ugly now
happiness...
is seldom found
pop a pill!
I'm so damn happy now
feeling things crawl on me
I need my fix today
this is way beyond me
I can't live without you today
you today...
you today...
I don't care about anything around me
even all the love that surrounds me
break me
be me
I don't care about anything
I do this to shut off the voice within
within...
within...
I don't care about anything!
feeling things crawl on me
I need my fix today
this is way beyond me
I can't live without you today
you today...
you today...
you today...
feeling things crawl on me
I need my fix today
this is way beyond me
I can't live without you today
I see clearly now
look at this!
Are you feeling now?
happiness...
is seldom found
pop a pill!
I'm so damn happy now
feeling things crawl on me
I need my fix today
this is way beyond me
I can't live without you today
well look at this!
I see colors now
look at this!
people ugly now
happiness...
is seldom found
pop a pill!
I'm so damn happy now
feeling things crawl on me
I need my fix today
this is way beyond me
I can't live without you today
you today...
you today...
I don't care about anything around me
even all the love that surrounds me
break me
be me
I don't care about anything
I do this to shut off the voice within
within...
within...
I don't care about anything!
feeling things crawl on me
I need my fix today
this is way beyond me
I can't live without you today
you today...
you today...
you today...
feeling things crawl on me
I need my fix today
this is way beyond me
I can't live without you today
Lyrics submitted by NoOnesThere
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Shouldn't have to dig far for the meaning here...it's about drug addiction.
WELL LOOK AT THIS!!!
Well i think it's less about drugs, but more about psycho-medication (Sorry for the word, I'm austrian) When you are depressed, you go to the psychiatrist, but instead of exploring your problem, he just puts you on medication, so you can function for society.
But that's just my opinion^^
I can see what you mean, but the underlying meaning is still addiction. Noone is forcing him to feel this way, it's a side-effect of taking pills that make you feel "better" regardless of the source.
"I need my fix today" "I can't live without you today"
This is definatly one of my favourite son the new album, is it just me or is the song itself a bit addictive? Since I bought the album I have have listened to it at least once everyday lol
Not about addiction, more about needing the medication for depression otherwise things get on top of him again. He's "feeling things crawl on me" (negative thoughts) so he needs his fix of anti-depressants to stop that and be "normal" as it were.
Hard to explain to someone who might not have been on them but this is definitely an ode to his anti-depression meds
It's JD's view on prescription medication, having himself been formerly on medication for anxiety