This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I didn't want to go
Go back and look for you
But it's a heartless drug
I'm addicted to
And when I drive that road
And start to feel that chill
I think I see your face
Do you come here still?
Those were the times and these were the places
Your love was so good
And now that I'm here I suddenly find that
I'm tumbling backward
I'm back to where I was before
Dreaming of glory and your love
And now I'm lying on your floor
Crashed on the surface of your love
The chemicals react
The molecules collide
The poison works it's way
Somewhere down inside
When we were young
I really believed love would never leave us
But time has a knack of pulling the rug out from underneath us
And nothing matters anymore
I'm still a victim of your love
And now I'm banging on your door
Time rolling backwards with your love
Over and over with your love
I know they're only ghosts and memories that I'm clutching at
And maybe I'm reaching back for something I never had
Still it seems so real to me
These ragged threads that lead me back to you
(Losing my mind waiting for you)
I'm back to where I was before
Time rolling backwards with your love
And now I'm lying on your floor
Crashed on the surface of your love
And where are all the dreams we had
Fractured and frozen with your love
You put a spell upon me that
Can never be broken with your love
Nowhere to run to but your love
Over and over with your love
Go back and look for you
But it's a heartless drug
I'm addicted to
And when I drive that road
And start to feel that chill
I think I see your face
Do you come here still?
Those were the times and these were the places
Your love was so good
And now that I'm here I suddenly find that
I'm tumbling backward
I'm back to where I was before
Dreaming of glory and your love
And now I'm lying on your floor
Crashed on the surface of your love
The chemicals react
The molecules collide
The poison works it's way
Somewhere down inside
When we were young
I really believed love would never leave us
But time has a knack of pulling the rug out from underneath us
And nothing matters anymore
I'm still a victim of your love
And now I'm banging on your door
Time rolling backwards with your love
Over and over with your love
I know they're only ghosts and memories that I'm clutching at
And maybe I'm reaching back for something I never had
Still it seems so real to me
These ragged threads that lead me back to you
(Losing my mind waiting for you)
I'm back to where I was before
Time rolling backwards with your love
And now I'm lying on your floor
Crashed on the surface of your love
And where are all the dreams we had
Fractured and frozen with your love
You put a spell upon me that
Can never be broken with your love
Nowhere to run to but your love
Over and over with your love
Lyrics submitted by badwolf13, edited by 60_miles_an_hour
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