This Is The Autobiography Of Onika Maraj

May the lord protect me as the world gets hectic
My voice projected my life reflected

[Verse 1:]
Daddy was a crack feind 2 in the morning had us running down the block like a track team
When he burnt the house down in my mother was in it
How could I forget it the, pain infinite
Shes my queen and I ain't even british
Shes the only reason that I went to school and I finished
She told me that I had talent
Got on her knees and prayed for me when I started being violent
She saw something in me that, until this day I don't know if I could be dat
But I'm a die tryin and when I'm done cryin
Grab the iron
And black out like I'm retiring
Nightmares of you killing my mother
The reason that I sleep with my head under the covers
N shoulda thrown a book at, chu cause I hate you so much that it burn when I look at chu

[Chorus: x2]
May the lord protect me as the world gets hectic my voice projected my life reflected

[Verse 2:]
Damn I wanna run to you
Hold you and kiss you tell you how I miss you
Thought I would have a son for you
But now it's official it's over and I can't let you go
But I gotta let you know all the shit I did make it feel like I'm dyin real slow, cause no one understands me they don't know what to do when I'm hurt when I'm angry
You was my friend and my man and my daddy,
You was there when that bitch tried to stab me anything I ever needed knew you had me
Cause of you all them chicks couldn't stand me
So why hurt you that's the question
It took this long for me to learn my lesson
Cause now all I want is peace and get drama
I finally understand the true meaning of karma

[Chorus: x2]
May the lord protect me as the world gets hectic my voice projected my life reflected

Please baby forgive me, mommy was young, mommy was to busy tryna have fun now
I pat myself on the back for sending you back cause god knows I was better than that
To conceive then leave you the concept alone seems evil I'm trapped in my concience
I adhear to the nonsense listened to people who told me I wasn't ready for you
But how the fuck would they know wat I was ready to do
And of course it wasn't your fault
It's like I feel it in the air, I hear you sayin mommy don't cry can't you see I'm right here
I gotta let you know what you mean to me
When I'm sleeping I see you in my dreams with me
Wish I could touch your little face or just hold your little hand
If it's part of gods plan, maybe we can met again

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    General CommentLast Verse:
    This verse was extremely sad and heart breaking. Onika was once pregnant with a little boy and ended up getting an abortion because of people telling her she wasn’t ready. Feeling guilty she begins to her sons voice telling her not to cry. Mainly she just wants to let her son know it wasn’t his fault at all. Someday they will meet again and she will be able to explain everything to him. this song is true, real, and comes from the heart. Honestly, I feel we can use a lot more songs like this. It would be more than interesting to hear what some of the rappers and singers have been through before the glamour life in the light.
    kikiloveeon January 21, 2011   Link
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    General Commentsomeone plez tell me what this song means...i luv this song! but i need the meaning to it for a assignment at school!!
    Laura5Biggson May 06, 2010   Link
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    General Commentthe first part of the song is talking about how much she loved her mother and how much her mother believed her when she didnt believe in herself and then her father burned down the house with her mother in it because he was on drugs. and thats why she hated him. the second part to the song was about how she miss treated her boyfriend that loved her and got her pregnat but she lost the baby. i was also about how he was the only one who really understood her emotions and knew what to do when she was hurt, sad, mad, ect. the last part of the song was about how she got pregnant ans every one kept telling her that she was to young to have the baby. she regret listening to them. some how she lost her baby she was young and wanted to have fun. so it was really about her appolligy to her baby. and that was what it ment.
    cymoneon October 22, 2010   Link
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    My OpinionMy Opion Is That Obviosly This Song Is About Her Life But Nicki I Felt The Same When My Friend Geovanni Died Cause Her Father Burn't Down Their House.This Song To Me Means How Much She Loves Her Mom Yes Her Father Tried To Burn Down The House To Kill Her Mother But Her Mother Stayed Alive.Also The Bitch That Tried To Stab Nicki Was Her Father And When She Is Talkin About The Baby Her BoyFriend Died So She Had An Abortion.She Was Feeling Like Her Father Was A Retard And He Was Stupid From My Reflection.
    Princeton1233on December 24, 2010   Link

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