This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Majority rules, all of that is just apart of the rules,
& the majority of us is just apart of the cool,
I’m apart of how it’s cut like I parted the tool,
& I’m the part that’s in the front like “pardon me dude”, the authentic,
the scriber for everyone who subscribes
to dollar shots of Henny with chicken wings & fries,
for $3.75 & what it took to get that,
pen to the pad, I paint it but don’t drip that,
O.D. with the pen on the low key,
& I become the backdrop when you tripping it O.T.,
the theme music for peddlers, call me what you want,
but I leave room for measurers, I’m on it from the jump,
& them? They cloud scoping, hoping the clouds open,
I pen both sides, the poetry’s now motioned,
pray to God that the car aint halted,
beautiful decay is what we call it
The beautiful decay,
so beautiful, so gorgeous,
but so opposite of all this,
the beautiful decay,
so beautiful, but so lawless,
& so left from what you call it,
the beautiful decay
To my man Stack Bundles, God bless your life,
to my peoples through out Queens, God bless your life,
I be southside pushing it, southside I’m good with it,
B.K. my home & southside my cushioning,
live from the bottom,
made it out alive, I survived from the bottom,
but when pushing the ride I don’t slide on the bottom,
any part of the lane that’s been apart of the game is in the heart of my name,
my growth is now & later & quarter water infused,
now take a look at what quarter waters can do,
tell ‘em the best laws get x’d off, it’s panoram,
when next door is stretched raw & hand to hands,
in junior high I rocked Penny’s, rolled dice,
& threw on the purple tape before I would go & write,
baptized in it clear as day,
& that side of me came from the staircase
The beautiful decay,
so beautiful, so gorgeous,
but so opposite of all this,
the beautiful decay,
so beautiful, but so lawless,
& so left from what you call it,
the beautiful decay
Freeze framing it, see how they keep playing it?,
it’s picture perfect, you can go either way with it,
so when they start running with something that’s all casted,
I brush off the front of my Jordan’s & walk past ‘em,
please don’t believe in everything that you listen to,
everything you listen to is everything they didn’t do,
everything they didn’t do is everything they wanna say,
everything they wanna say is everything you wanna play,
but for the beautiful I can find the decay in it
I took the newest light bill & a pen to the basement and,
used the back of that light bill to write what i’m saying and,
hope that it’ll keep your lights on when you’re playing it
The beautiful decay,
so beautiful, so gorgeous,
but so opposite of all this,
the beautiful decay,
so beautiful, but so lawless,
& so left from what you call it,
the beautiful decay
& the majority of us is just apart of the cool,
I’m apart of how it’s cut like I parted the tool,
& I’m the part that’s in the front like “pardon me dude”, the authentic,
the scriber for everyone who subscribes
to dollar shots of Henny with chicken wings & fries,
for $3.75 & what it took to get that,
pen to the pad, I paint it but don’t drip that,
O.D. with the pen on the low key,
& I become the backdrop when you tripping it O.T.,
the theme music for peddlers, call me what you want,
but I leave room for measurers, I’m on it from the jump,
& them? They cloud scoping, hoping the clouds open,
I pen both sides, the poetry’s now motioned,
pray to God that the car aint halted,
beautiful decay is what we call it
The beautiful decay,
so beautiful, so gorgeous,
but so opposite of all this,
the beautiful decay,
so beautiful, but so lawless,
& so left from what you call it,
the beautiful decay
To my man Stack Bundles, God bless your life,
to my peoples through out Queens, God bless your life,
I be southside pushing it, southside I’m good with it,
B.K. my home & southside my cushioning,
live from the bottom,
made it out alive, I survived from the bottom,
but when pushing the ride I don’t slide on the bottom,
any part of the lane that’s been apart of the game is in the heart of my name,
my growth is now & later & quarter water infused,
now take a look at what quarter waters can do,
tell ‘em the best laws get x’d off, it’s panoram,
when next door is stretched raw & hand to hands,
in junior high I rocked Penny’s, rolled dice,
& threw on the purple tape before I would go & write,
baptized in it clear as day,
& that side of me came from the staircase
The beautiful decay,
so beautiful, so gorgeous,
but so opposite of all this,
the beautiful decay,
so beautiful, but so lawless,
& so left from what you call it,
the beautiful decay
Freeze framing it, see how they keep playing it?,
it’s picture perfect, you can go either way with it,
so when they start running with something that’s all casted,
I brush off the front of my Jordan’s & walk past ‘em,
please don’t believe in everything that you listen to,
everything you listen to is everything they didn’t do,
everything they didn’t do is everything they wanna say,
everything they wanna say is everything you wanna play,
but for the beautiful I can find the decay in it
I took the newest light bill & a pen to the basement and,
used the back of that light bill to write what i’m saying and,
hope that it’ll keep your lights on when you’re playing it
The beautiful decay,
so beautiful, so gorgeous,
but so opposite of all this,
the beautiful decay,
so beautiful, but so lawless,
& so left from what you call it,
the beautiful decay
Lyrics submitted by mixmaster95
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