This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
There's big pieces of a life she can't remember
Her mind shuts down, it's trying to protect her
Might be for the best to forget but it seems like
They always reappear when she least expects
Late nights we lay awake, drowning in the lake that pours out of her face
Years later she's still not safe
Memories live out in the time,in the place
The way he smelled,the way he smiled
The evil she even recognized as a child
Hand on her throat, sting of a fist
Instead of her first kiss she got this
Shameful feeling, painful secret
Lonely knowin' that nobody would believe it
Heavy wound that escapes the time capsule
It hurts like the day it was born and it's brand new
I wasn't there, babygirl, but I'm here
I don't know what to say I just hear
If there's one wish I could make true
I would shoulder that pain and take it off of you
Don't run, babygirl, don't run
You gotta' face what you're fighting head on
Only one thing I could say in truth
Gotta' deal with the demons before they deal with you
How can she find peace in her mind when
Love means returning to the scene of a crime
I can feel it inside we reopen wounds every time we intertwine
Such an evil design when you can't even enjoy the sweetness you find
Trying to see through the tears in your eyes and rebuild your shrine
one piece at a time
E and the K made it all fade away
colors don't burn no more it's all gray
Cant find heaven from within that shell but it's enough of a blessin' just not seeing hell
Constant inner dialog says just end this roller coaster ride you're on
Only one solution seems final:
slide into a hole where your pain can't find you
I wasn't there babygirl but I'm here
I don't know what to say I just hear
If there's one wish I could make true
I would shoulder that pain and take it off of you
Don't run babygirl, don't run
You gotta' face what you're fighting head on
Only one thing I could say in truth
Gotta deal with the demons before they deal with you
She said if I was meant to die he would've killed me
There must be a reason that I still breathe
I don't have the tools to rebuild me
But I still believe that one day I could feel free
And my body can be mine again
My eyes can learn how to shine again
My inner child won't have to hide and then
When I'm strong then love can be invited in
Sweet God that's all I ask of thee
I'm willing to give what you demand of me
I'm learning to embrace the reality
That life doesn't always turn out how it's planned to be
I didn't deserve what was handed me
Only one who can grant happiness is me
What it takes for her to face the day
I can only hope to be half that brave
I wasn't there, babygirl, but I'm here
I don't know what to say I just hear
If there's one wish I could make true
I would shoulder that pain and take it off you
Don't run, babygirl, don't run
You gotta' face what you're fighting head on
Only one thing I could say in truth
Gotta' deal with the demons before they deal with you
Her mind shuts down, it's trying to protect her
Might be for the best to forget but it seems like
They always reappear when she least expects
Late nights we lay awake, drowning in the lake that pours out of her face
Years later she's still not safe
Memories live out in the time,in the place
The way he smelled,the way he smiled
The evil she even recognized as a child
Hand on her throat, sting of a fist
Instead of her first kiss she got this
Shameful feeling, painful secret
Lonely knowin' that nobody would believe it
Heavy wound that escapes the time capsule
It hurts like the day it was born and it's brand new
I wasn't there, babygirl, but I'm here
I don't know what to say I just hear
If there's one wish I could make true
I would shoulder that pain and take it off of you
Don't run, babygirl, don't run
You gotta' face what you're fighting head on
Only one thing I could say in truth
Gotta' deal with the demons before they deal with you
How can she find peace in her mind when
Love means returning to the scene of a crime
I can feel it inside we reopen wounds every time we intertwine
Such an evil design when you can't even enjoy the sweetness you find
Trying to see through the tears in your eyes and rebuild your shrine
one piece at a time
E and the K made it all fade away
colors don't burn no more it's all gray
Cant find heaven from within that shell but it's enough of a blessin' just not seeing hell
Constant inner dialog says just end this roller coaster ride you're on
Only one solution seems final:
slide into a hole where your pain can't find you
I wasn't there babygirl but I'm here
I don't know what to say I just hear
If there's one wish I could make true
I would shoulder that pain and take it off of you
Don't run babygirl, don't run
You gotta' face what you're fighting head on
Only one thing I could say in truth
Gotta deal with the demons before they deal with you
She said if I was meant to die he would've killed me
There must be a reason that I still breathe
I don't have the tools to rebuild me
But I still believe that one day I could feel free
And my body can be mine again
My eyes can learn how to shine again
My inner child won't have to hide and then
When I'm strong then love can be invited in
Sweet God that's all I ask of thee
I'm willing to give what you demand of me
I'm learning to embrace the reality
That life doesn't always turn out how it's planned to be
I didn't deserve what was handed me
Only one who can grant happiness is me
What it takes for her to face the day
I can only hope to be half that brave
I wasn't there, babygirl, but I'm here
I don't know what to say I just hear
If there's one wish I could make true
I would shoulder that pain and take it off you
Don't run, babygirl, don't run
You gotta' face what you're fighting head on
Only one thing I could say in truth
Gotta' deal with the demons before they deal with you
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I love this song.. my favorite so far off his new album.
The first verse refers to a woman who was raped as a child and has never been able to forget that event. She just wants to forget this trauma, but often is faced with visions and recollections of the man who raped her. The chorus is referring to a man (possibly Ali, maybe not) who wants to make things better. Though he wasn't there to comfort her initially, he is there for her now and wants to help take the pain away. She must confront this trauma or it will continue to consume her. The second verse is the man stating how he notices it is impossible for her to love (have sex) because it is like reopening a deep wound. She uses Ecstasy (E) and Ketamine (K) to make this pain go away, and the drugs are her only true escape. The last verse is about the slight hope she holds that one day she will be able to truly live and the admiration of the man who recognizes the difficulty for her to even make it through the day.
I think it's also worth noting that the first verse makes it relatively clear the man who raped her was a part of her childhood, possibly a friend, or even member of the family.<br /> <br /> "The evil she even recognized as a child" ...she knew him when she was even younger and sensed he was capable of terrible things.<br /> <br /> "Shameful feeling, painful secret<br /> Lonely knowin' that nobody would believe it" ...implies that no matter who she told, they'd take his word over hers, because most people in her life were closer to him than her.<br /> <br /> Terrible way to live, I can't imagine.
Great comment. This is one of my favorites as well, his flow goes so well with the verses, beautiful.
SICK song . The beat goes perfect with the most amazing flow ever. LIKE Brother Ali, check out thecurrent.org for live streaming amazing music , THE BEST RADIO STATION IN THE NATION!
about 30 minutes ago my girlfriend sent me an e-mail telling me she was sexually abused by her babysitter's children when she was a kid. i immediately felt sick and cold and just completely out of it. i immediately turned this song on, and this song is just so accurate. Ali has mentioned in interviews that this song is based off of a true story. i'm going to send this song to her tonight, and i hope that it can help her as much as it has helped me.