Oh my story is not the oldest of its kind.
I was to touched to see you clearly,
far too young to realize I had loved so dearly you,
whose world I had designed,
but the sweet smoke came with mirrors
and it brought tears to my wide eyes.

Dying just to see you...
dying since I misconstrued
your blue heart, black eyes,
feigning falling, words I won't forget.
I died right when I saw you
while you shared that cigarette.

Oh I saw you every time I close my eyes,
in the Hughes film I had scored,
produced and starred in, in my mind.
I could recite you, well,
I'd written every line...
but you strayed far from my flawless script
on which I'd spent a lifetime!

Falling over dead.
Dying since I had misread
your blue heart, black eyes,
feigning falling, words I won't forget.
I died right when I saw you
while you shared that cigarette.


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Veronica Sawyer Smokes song meanings
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    Davey had a crush on Winona Rider, he saw her smoking in Heathers, he's straight edge and couldn't accept it. Kind of goofy and melodramatic but I think it's sort of intentional. It's about naivity and disillusionment. Cool song, sounds like the Smiths.

    Idontloveon October 11, 2009   Link
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    I think that this song is about when you see someone and think they are a certain way and you keep believing it until the reality of who that person truely is smacks you in the face. Your opinions and expectations of someone are crushed because you were too naive to look at them as anything more than what you wanted.

    "Oh my story is not the oldest of its kind. I was to touched to see you clearly, far too young to realize I had loved so dearly you, whose world I had designed, but the sweet smoke came with mirrors and it brought tears to my wide eyes."

    This basically says that this is a common thing(my story is not the oldest of its kind). You see and like someone from the first impression and think that their whole life is like what they were. You create this whole world in your mind for them. "The sweet smoke came with mirrors and it brought tears to my wide eyes" says that the world you created was an illusion, some wishful thinking that was shattered and the shock of that hurts.

    "Dying just to see you... dying since I misconstrued your blue heart, black eyes, feigning falling, words I won't forget. I died right when I saw you while you shared that cigarette."

    You wanted to see them but when you did you learned you were wrong. The shared cigarette is supposed to symbolize the truth of how that person was not as perfect as you had imagined.

    "Oh I saw you every time I close my eyes, in the Hughes film I had scored, produced and starred in, in my mind. I could recite you, well, I'd written every line... but you strayed far from my flawless script on which I'd spent a lifetime!"

    This says that the fantasy was obviously created like a movie in your head. You knew everything about the person that you'd created but the person had not done what you had wanted them to do. You spent so much time creating who they were but they turned out all wrong from the flawless persona you had given them.

    "Falling over dead. Dying since I had misread your blue heart, black eyes, feigning falling, words I won't forget. I died right when I saw you while you shared that cigarette."

    This is mostly the same as the first verse except that now it's as though your world fell apart and you die because you didn't see the person for what they were.

    Well, that's my two cents.

    makeshiftskieson October 16, 2009   Link
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    Veronica Sawyer is a character in Heathers played by Winona Ryder, who in Beetlejuice also says the line "My whole life is a dark room... one big dark room." which Davey says in The Despair Factor. I just thought it was interesting.

    JCushon November 12, 2010   Link
  • +1
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    Veronica Sawyer is the main character in Heathers.

    Sparkle_motionon September 23, 2009   Link
  • +1
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    I really love this song. It's one of my favorites on Crash Love, I think. I love the melancholy of it and the nostalgic feel.

    KTheLibraon September 25, 2009   Link
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    EVERYBODY is singing about heathers now, lol it's redic. this song isn't that good imo. it's ok.

    thrwmyhrtawy.on September 26, 2009   Link
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    Not the sharpest knife in the Crash Love drawer, but enjoyable nonetheless. A nice change to a very upbeat song from the usual dark, morose sound we're all used to getting from Davey and the AFI gang. But here are my two cents...

    I believe this is a song that describes someone who acted like a fool (let's call him Danny for the sake of my explanation) to a person that loved them dearly (say hello to danny's girl, Rochelle) only for Rochelle to leave brokenhearted and Danny realizing the damage he's done. And unfortunately, right when you realize things, it's too late to fix them. Overall moral of the song? Love those who comes into your life, you'll never know when tomorrow with that person would never come.

    The first verse emphasizes the fact that most men only care about having fun and riding out their youthful years. And sometimes, it involves a time where someone's feelings would be hurt. In this song, Danny meets Rochelle, and Rochelle tries to make a move on Danny. Despite her efforts, Danny continues about his life without sharing it with Rochelle, which leaves her hurt.
    The following basically sold the meaning of this song to me...

    "Dying just to see you/dying since i misconstrued your..."

    Self-explanatory. Danny realized the wrong he's done and is longing for Rochelle to come back in his life so they can mend things together.

    "Blue heart....black eyes"

    Quick to point out that Davey could have gone the other way when he wrote this (think about "blue eyes...black heart), which is probably intentional on Davey's part, which means that "Rochelle" is one of those people that might look like a terrible person on the outside (black eyes), but is a genuinely sweet person in the inside (blue heart), and Danny misjudged Rochelle because of that.

    "feigning, falling words I won't forget"

    Danny remembers evey hurtful thing he said to Rochelle, it echoes in his head constantly, and he regrets it.

    "I died...right when I...saw you while you shared that cigarette..."

    This is a metaphor relating to, literally, a cigarette. Danny's little fling with Rochelle is a thing that sucks the life out of Danny and it affects those that are close to Danny (friends and family). Danny wants to start things over with Rochelle again, but she either left Danny or is dating someone else.

    Second verse is pretty much the same. And oh...I love it when Jade's guitar riffs in the middle of the chorus (cue it right after Davey sings out "I died, right when I..." in the chorus)

    Prostye_Dvizheniyaon October 22, 2009   Link
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    Afi can just simpelymake ggooddd music

    Skate4lifekbkon January 04, 2010   Link
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    how**** not hoe my bad hahah

    Skate4lifekbkon February 03, 2010   Link
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    Beautiful song.

    BrightEyesAtheiston May 16, 2010   Link

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