@[Diderik:33655] "Your a holiday!" Was a popular term used in the 50s/60s to compliment someone on their all around. For example, not only are they beautiful, but they are fun and kind too ... just an all around "holiday".
I think your first comment is closer to being accurate. The singer/song writers state "Millions of eyes can see, yet why am i so blind!? When the someone else is me, its unkind its unkind". I believe hes referring to the girl toying with him and using him. He wants something deeper with her, thats why he allows himself to be as a puppet (even though for her fun and games) as long as it makes her happy. But he knows deep down that she doesnt really want to be serious with him and thats what makes him.
Twisting and turning unable to sleep
Do the voices ever stop
My thoughts speak louder the more I resist
And they're driving me insane
Do they ever go
Inside I'm a danger to myself
I'm a danger to myself
Inside I'm a prisoner of my own hell
My own hell
Losing the battle I've waged on myself
Lock me up and toss the key
Toys in the attic its all getting worse
Why wont they let me be oh god make it stop
Inside I'm a danger to myself
I'm a danger to myself
Inside I'm a prisoner of my own hell
My own hell
Fit me for a straitjacket
Put me in a padded cell
I'm a danger to you all
And I'm a danger to myself
Inside I'm a danger to myself
I'm a danger to myself
Inside I'm a prisoner of my own hell
My own hell
Inside I'm a danger to myself
I'm a danger to myself
Inside I'm a prisoner of my own hell
My own hell
Do the voices ever stop
My thoughts speak louder the more I resist
And they're driving me insane
Do they ever go
Inside I'm a danger to myself
I'm a danger to myself
Inside I'm a prisoner of my own hell
My own hell
Losing the battle I've waged on myself
Lock me up and toss the key
Toys in the attic its all getting worse
Why wont they let me be oh god make it stop
Inside I'm a danger to myself
I'm a danger to myself
Inside I'm a prisoner of my own hell
My own hell
Fit me for a straitjacket
Put me in a padded cell
I'm a danger to you all
And I'm a danger to myself
Inside I'm a danger to myself
I'm a danger to myself
Inside I'm a prisoner of my own hell
My own hell
Inside I'm a danger to myself
I'm a danger to myself
Inside I'm a prisoner of my own hell
My own hell
Lyrics submitted by Sonic Raider, edited by Shadowbrook
My Own Hell Lyrics as written by Jason Hook Ivan Moody
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sounds like my head.
Sounds like he goes through the same shit I do.
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i don't really get the part about toys in the attic