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So I heard it from a friend that there was this guy that I should talk to
So you let me in, opened doors underneath a crucifix statue
So I explained to you, I was having troubles getting through
And I was thinking of my end, it was just the sky I kept looking to

You said "I'm on your side“
I thanked you and I cried
I almost died

I was making strides, I was showing up every Sunday
But I was still confused about the pain that had invaded me
And I'm still wondering if my soul’s worth it to anybody
You assured me that the congregation would hear me

They said "we're on your side,
There's an unconditional kingdom that stands up high
He lets all believers in through the forgiveness of sin“

So I explained to you what was the cause of my suffering
See it was a while ago, there was an alleyway and there was a group of men
When they hurt me they whispered that the gays had to pay
When they beat me all of my worth was taken away
See I needed you and your knowing of the lord's own way through
And I was unfolded, I believed there was something he could do
But you just hung your head and told me it was the door I needed to be going to
"Son there's just principles, I cannot be the one who helps you“

You said "I'm not your side
You're probably paying for your sins
I don't understand your kind, it isn't mine“

Father your cold heart’s a smoking gun
Your cross ain’t no where I want to hang my hope from
There's still something I half believe, that's why I'm leaving this world behind me
See my sexuality don't have nothing to do with my integrity
When I get into that land, I'll lead with the one who wears the crown

He will say "I'm on your side
The side that's kind
Judge not what's right
In time you'll find you’re left“

Lyrics submitted by anemicamour, edited by llscience

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  • +2
    General Comment'And your knowing of the lords own way through'

    and 'You said, I'm not on your side'

    pretty obvious what this is about, religion for the wrong reasons. great song
    selfishisgorgeouson April 10, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI nearly cried when I read these lyrics.
    notperfect88on November 11, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General CommentWhere can I find this song?
    HopeSoForYouon May 22, 2009   Link
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    General Commentit's about how christianity does not accept homosexuals, i'd assume. "you're probably paying for your sin" seems to hint at that...i think the song is pointing out how hypocritical it is to say you're a christian and that you love and accept everyone and then expel those who you see as different.
    YouKnowStuffon August 26, 2009   Link
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    General CommentI'm pretty sure it's 'and I'm still wondering if my soul is worth it to anybody', and 'You know I know the lords own way through'. The song is obviously about the catholic church's attitude towards homosexuality.
    kingharvest88on August 23, 2010   Link
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    General CommentI don't think this song is negative towards the the christian/catholic church. I think it's just saying that he believes in God and just because he has a different orientation then that doesn't mean that he can not walk with God.
    crobenskon November 15, 2011   Link
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    General CommentThis is such an amazing song, and being gay myself, I have found some of this un-accepting behavior from my "friends" at school. I do want to point out that this isn't by Bon Iver, which is a band. This is found under Justin Vernon because it is from his solo album "Self Record".
    ericdmorganon August 07, 2013   Link
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    My InterpretationMy interpretation of the last lines is that Jesus is telling him in the end it doesn't matter, because he is no longer on earth. He left it behind. In death he was free of his sexuality. Free of the criticism that it brought. The last lines also play off the idea of sides, using the words "right" and "left" both with dual meanings.
    brian10211on December 23, 2016   Link

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