Fell this morning, fucked up this whole damn day
In fact the sun is high and shining, but I'm too drained to leave
I'll wait for night to sink, close the blinds and lock both the doors
Oh god I'm terrified, I'm terrified to be found here, shaking and withdrawn
I need a break, I keep scratching but won't cut deep enough to bleed
I'll figure it out alone, Don't know what's gotten in to me

But it'll be alright, it'll be alright,
It's okay, god damn sometimes silence is all I need
To be and feel complete
It's okay, if you never hurt you never feel a thing
And I don't say all I mean.

Fuck tomorrow and fuck all of yesterday
I'm too old to be chasing burdens by the riverside at night
A watershed waste deep with friends turning cheeks
As I'm chasing trains that never end
I cut but I don't feel, don't know what's gotten...

It's okay, god damn sometimes silence is all I need
To be and feel complete
It's okay, if you never hurt you never feel a thing
And I don't say all I mean

But I'm not scared, no I ain't angry
I just need time, just need to escape
We all try, tired and broken
But it'll be alright


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    I really dig this tune because I can relate to needing time alone with my thoughts. That's what I think this song is really about. You can be down in the dumps, and sometimes you need family and friends to reach out to; other times you just need to sit alone, reflect, and feel. It also reminds me of my ex-girlfriend, who always said I didn't talk enough about my feelings. Whatever.

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