Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

I fuckin' swear that I care
But its hard when you stare
Into the bottom of a bottle
That is empty and bare
All my desolate soul
In my desolate home
It's my desolate role
Yeah I'm here all alone
I can't think of a reason
To get the fuck out of bed
Curtains closed, lights are off
Am I alive or dead?
I haven't shaved in a week
I always slur when I speak
Tolerance at its peak
Another fit just to sleep
Oh woe is me woe is me
I guess I need love
Hoes ya see hoes ya see
I'm just in a rut
And I swear I'm tryin' baby please
Baby don't leave
God-damn I'm a fuck-up
But I guess that's just me
So I sit in my room
And I'll cry in my bed
Thinkin' about all the shit
That made me wrong in my head
I keep tryin' to climb
But it seems so steep
Pour myself a fuckin' whisky
And go back to sleep, bitch

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

I watch my momma cry
She says 'baby why?'
I say 'baby died,
Baby's gone like a suicide'
I don't think you'll see him soon, mom
Stay out my room, mom
Tell daddy that I hate
That mother fucker like you, mom
I sing this shit for you, Danny, Sasha and Jordan
These beers keep gettin' warmer
Every time that I hold her
I pour this out for you
Like a partner in crime
It's part of the times
When you're sick in the mind
Yeah I'm sick, oh so sick
I'm so sick of this shit
Yeah I'm lit, oh so lit
I'm so fucked up off it
So I stumble around
Til I stumble fall down
To this puddle of my tears
Layin' here on the ground

When you've got nothing left
You've got nothing left to lose
With my last left single breath
I'll still be singing to you
So when you bury me man
You better bury me deep
And sing along to this song
Because you're broken like me

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

And I wanna go back to the start
Back where we started from
And I know it's been so long
I was wrong, I was wrong
I was wrong all along

And I wanna go back to the start
Back where we started from
And I know it's been so long
I was wrong, I was wrong
I was wrong all along

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home

Cause I don't wanna be like this
I've been runnin' these streets
For too long now
I've got nothing that's true
But this song now
But the further I go
I wanna go home


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The Diary Lyrics as written by George Arthur Ragan Aron Erlichman

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    Memory

    this song is basicaly my life story, cahnge a few names, switch mom with Aunt, and dad with Uncle. Danny, Sasha and Jordan change those names to Daniel, Sara, and raymond. I mean me aunt and uncle kicked me out on my 18th b-day because i had emotional, and mental isues and ne3ver talked to me since. and when i lived with them there was so much hatred and resent the song is ironicly the perfect match, my Gf left me, my friends abondoned me, i became an alcoholic, and a realy depressed SOB. and i wish me grandma had not died when i was 10 because i fhad went throw 10 years of hell after that, so i realy do wish i could go back and stop her from dying because i am tired of this life and all i ever realy want is to go to a home whre i belong and is loved at.

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