This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Compassion is broken now
My will is eroded now
Desire is broken now
It makes me feel ugly
On my knees and burning
My piss and moans are fuel and,
I set my head on fire
Smell my soul is burning
I'm broken
Looking up to see the enemy
And I've swallowed the poison you're feeding me,
But I survive on the poison you're feeding me
Leaving while you're
Guilt, fed
Hatred, fed
Weakness, fed
It makes me feel ugly
On my knees and burning
My piss and moans are fuel and,
I set my head on fire
Dead inside
Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds up at the bottom
If I let you, you would make me destroy myself.
In order to survive you, I must first survive myself.
And I can sink no further, and I cannot forgive you.
There's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you.
I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain.
I'll use my mistakes against you.
There's no other choice.
Shameless now, nameless now, nothing now, no one now.
But my soul must be iron.
'Cause my fear is naked.
I'm naked and fearless.
And my fear is naked
Dead inside
Dead inside
Dead inside
Dead inside
Nameless now
Shameless now
Nothing now
No one now
Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds as you see me,
Naked now
Fearless now
Naked now
Fearless now
Shit adds up it leaves me,
Dead inside
Dead inside
Dead inside
Dead inside
Hatred keeps me alive,
How could this keep me alive?
Weakness keeps me alive
Guilt keeps me alive at the bottom
My will is eroded now
Desire is broken now
It makes me feel ugly
On my knees and burning
My piss and moans are fuel and,
I set my head on fire
Smell my soul is burning
I'm broken
Looking up to see the enemy
And I've swallowed the poison you're feeding me,
But I survive on the poison you're feeding me
Leaving while you're
Guilt, fed
Hatred, fed
Weakness, fed
It makes me feel ugly
On my knees and burning
My piss and moans are fuel and,
I set my head on fire
Dead inside
Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds up at the bottom
If I let you, you would make me destroy myself.
In order to survive you, I must first survive myself.
And I can sink no further, and I cannot forgive you.
There's no choice but to confront you, to engage you, to erase you.
I've gone to great lengths to expand my threshold of pain.
I'll use my mistakes against you.
There's no other choice.
Shameless now, nameless now, nothing now, no one now.
But my soul must be iron.
'Cause my fear is naked.
I'm naked and fearless.
And my fear is naked
Dead inside
Dead inside
Dead inside
Dead inside
Nameless now
Shameless now
Nothing now
No one now
Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds up
Shit adds as you see me,
Naked now
Fearless now
Naked now
Fearless now
Shit adds up it leaves me,
Dead inside
Dead inside
Dead inside
Dead inside
Hatred keeps me alive,
How could this keep me alive?
Weakness keeps me alive
Guilt keeps me alive at the bottom
Lyrics submitted by homicidal_loser x, edited by Mellow_Harsher, CasROCK96
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