This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Missy got off the bus one day
In a crowd of people, downtown LA
She looked around as if to say, 'I'm home'
But I'm home
I find someone to love
And some place to drink
And some time when I can just sit and think
And I don't mind if I catch the stink of these drones
Lord, of these drones
Just as long as I'm never alone
She had eyes as big as porcelain plates
And skin as thin as paper drapes
And she loved the Lord the way an apostate loves songs
And she'd sing to him before she went to sleep:
"I pray to you, my soul to keep
You're shepherd, then I'll be your sheep
Until dawn, oh until dawn
Well I'd follow you, even if it was wrong"
I met her one night at the coffee shop
Her face so bright, my heart just stopped
Hello my dear, I fear I'm not what I seem
Not what I seem
I should've become a better man
I should be more deserving than
The beggar, thief and courtesan I've been
Oh, that I've been
But I swear, I lie, I curse all of my dreams
But I swear there's still some good in me
And I think if you stuck around you'd see
All the honest attempts at integrity, I was had
Maybe if you helped me, I'd get it right
I lie awake every night, staring at the ceiling
Wondering why I feel so bad, why I feel so bad
But I swear, I swear, I swear I'll never get sad
In a crowd of people, downtown LA
She looked around as if to say, 'I'm home'
But I'm home
I find someone to love
And some place to drink
And some time when I can just sit and think
And I don't mind if I catch the stink of these drones
Lord, of these drones
Just as long as I'm never alone
She had eyes as big as porcelain plates
And skin as thin as paper drapes
And she loved the Lord the way an apostate loves songs
And she'd sing to him before she went to sleep:
"I pray to you, my soul to keep
You're shepherd, then I'll be your sheep
Until dawn, oh until dawn
Well I'd follow you, even if it was wrong"
I met her one night at the coffee shop
Her face so bright, my heart just stopped
Hello my dear, I fear I'm not what I seem
Not what I seem
I should've become a better man
I should be more deserving than
The beggar, thief and courtesan I've been
Oh, that I've been
But I swear, I lie, I curse all of my dreams
But I swear there's still some good in me
And I think if you stuck around you'd see
All the honest attempts at integrity, I was had
Maybe if you helped me, I'd get it right
I lie awake every night, staring at the ceiling
Wondering why I feel so bad, why I feel so bad
But I swear, I swear, I swear I'll never get sad
Lyrics submitted by shrodes, edited by ameerhamid89, kylethewelch
Missy Lyrics as written by Mikel Frans Jollett
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I think it's written in admiration for this... "Missy." Written in awe for how strong-willed and dedicated to her faith she remains, despite living in a place as ungodly and tempting as downtown Los Angeles. Missy has inspired him, and he begins to plead his case theoretically to her, but in reality to himself and his own conscious. And just as the song sparks our interest, it drops us in a cliffhanger, leaving it open for us to imagine whether or not he fulfilled his desire to start to become a better person.
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agreed.
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The lyrics say this Missy character loves the Lord the way an apostate loves Psalms. Apostate is a name given to someone who loses all faith and rejects the church. I still don't fully understand why she prays after that in the song.
yeah i agree with you. It is "Psalms".
hmm, about a relationship gone bad but still with feelings for the person and such...pretty kinda self explanatory yet open for interpretation.
*changing interpretation... maybe he wants to have sex with her and she's all religious and he's just a player and feels sorry for putting her on, and possibly having sex her?
according to mikel during a live concert, this song is about "finding yourself in music" (and that's about as much of an intro as he has given to any song i've heard live yet), so it makes it seem like it's a very positive thing. i don't know how exactly it relates to the girl named missy, or if missy is perhaps a personification of the idea of music (finding a "home" in downtown l.a.), but it could be somewhat of a celebration of music in general, or airborne's personal trek from nothing to stardom.
"Well I'd follow you even if it was wrong"
This always seemed to me like a reference to people who are so deep in their religion that they're blinkered to anything that might be wrong with it. With this line being Missy saying to God that she'd follow him even if it was wrong. Idk if that fits in with the rest of the song though.