This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Now, Some of you should understand - The Psycho
This Trifled, A mad man with a knife and a rifle
I tried so hard just to let you go
But everytime i think of you I just lose control
I've got a bloody nose from the line i just did
I'm calling up your phone to see how you live
Without me in your life
Without me in your bed
Without me by your side
Without me in your head
But theres never an awnser I don't think she loves me anymore
I think she's fucking someone else
And I'm losing control
The phone rings again and again
"Where you at you fucking bitch" on the voicemail
Its all i said
Then i smash my phone because I'm all alone
While your out there getting Boned
and i'm calling on the phone
Fuck that bitch
Give me my respect
Or death is your alternative
Without you there ain't nothing left
You will feel my pain
You will feel my touch
I will watch you die
Because i love you so much
Now you will be mine
I will watch you die
You will feel my touch
Because i love you so much
Now i'm going in my car down I - 25
I got the coke in the bullet and the jim beam by my side
I'm drunk, swerving into mother fucking traffic
My girl is disrespecting me
I'm not gonna have this!
Up the exit I go as my adrenaline flows
My nose is still and bleeding
And i'm feeling cut-throat
As i approach there's a car in the driveway
Who the fuck is that?
And why are they in my fucking parking space?
I creep up and I look in the window
I'm seeing nothing but I think i'm hearing downlow
I can't go now my home is in danger
And even though youve been gone for a while
You ain't leaving for a stranger
I love you and only love me
We're gonna settle down someday and we're gonna have a family
It's sad to see that I couldn't make you understand
But if i can't have you then no one can
You will feel my pain
You will feel my touch
I will watch you die
Because i love you so much
Now you will be mine
I will watch you die
You will feel my touch
Because i love you so much
I knocked on the door with no prevail
But when she finally opened up
The bitch scratched me with her fingernails
Who the fuck is that in my driveway!?
I told you when we got together it was to be my way
And now you wanna disrespect me like this!?
I hit her in the face about three times with a closed fist
Now she's panicing and screaming calling for her lover
When he came into the room
I was standing right above her
With her hair in my fist
Makeup running down her face
What the fuck you thinking taking my place?
"I think not mother fucker"
So i dropped the bitch
I felt her try and grab at feet with her bloody fingertips
So i kicked her in the face knocked her bitch ass away
Now i'm standing face to face and my heart is in haste
I hope you know your dying tonight
You inavded my home
And now i'm taking your life
You will feel my pain
You will feel my touch
I will watch you die
Because i love you so much
Now you will be mine
I will watch you die
You will feel my touch
Because i love you so much
I grabbed him by the throat and he punched me in the nose
I'm think he broke the mother fucker cause there's blood running down my throat
"You done fucked up" is all i said
And i proceeded to beat him until the carpet turned blood red
Come here bitch, you ain't off the hook
You're gonna watch your lover die
And close the final chapter in the book
Of our relationship and life together
I tried to make it go away
I tried to make everything get better
But that was never good enough
Always busy right?
All i ever tried to do was give you better life
And as i choke you I know you can see
How much i love you girl your the one for me
fade away sweet baby
I'll see you on the otherside
Cause when you let go
I'm gonna take my own life
And as her eyes roll back in her head
I pull the gun out cock the hammer put it to my head
And i said:
Now i take my pain with this final touch
I will die tonight
Because i love you so much
Now you will be mine
I said you would in time
Now i feel the guns touch
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
This Trifled, A mad man with a knife and a rifle
I tried so hard just to let you go
But everytime i think of you I just lose control
I've got a bloody nose from the line i just did
I'm calling up your phone to see how you live
Without me in your life
Without me in your bed
Without me by your side
Without me in your head
But theres never an awnser I don't think she loves me anymore
I think she's fucking someone else
And I'm losing control
The phone rings again and again
"Where you at you fucking bitch" on the voicemail
Its all i said
Then i smash my phone because I'm all alone
While your out there getting Boned
and i'm calling on the phone
Fuck that bitch
Give me my respect
Or death is your alternative
Without you there ain't nothing left
You will feel my pain
You will feel my touch
I will watch you die
Because i love you so much
Now you will be mine
I will watch you die
You will feel my touch
Because i love you so much
Now i'm going in my car down I - 25
I got the coke in the bullet and the jim beam by my side
I'm drunk, swerving into mother fucking traffic
My girl is disrespecting me
I'm not gonna have this!
Up the exit I go as my adrenaline flows
My nose is still and bleeding
And i'm feeling cut-throat
As i approach there's a car in the driveway
Who the fuck is that?
And why are they in my fucking parking space?
I creep up and I look in the window
I'm seeing nothing but I think i'm hearing downlow
I can't go now my home is in danger
And even though youve been gone for a while
You ain't leaving for a stranger
I love you and only love me
We're gonna settle down someday and we're gonna have a family
It's sad to see that I couldn't make you understand
But if i can't have you then no one can
You will feel my pain
You will feel my touch
I will watch you die
Because i love you so much
Now you will be mine
I will watch you die
You will feel my touch
Because i love you so much
I knocked on the door with no prevail
But when she finally opened up
The bitch scratched me with her fingernails
Who the fuck is that in my driveway!?
I told you when we got together it was to be my way
And now you wanna disrespect me like this!?
I hit her in the face about three times with a closed fist
Now she's panicing and screaming calling for her lover
When he came into the room
I was standing right above her
With her hair in my fist
Makeup running down her face
What the fuck you thinking taking my place?
"I think not mother fucker"
So i dropped the bitch
I felt her try and grab at feet with her bloody fingertips
So i kicked her in the face knocked her bitch ass away
Now i'm standing face to face and my heart is in haste
I hope you know your dying tonight
You inavded my home
And now i'm taking your life
You will feel my pain
You will feel my touch
I will watch you die
Because i love you so much
Now you will be mine
I will watch you die
You will feel my touch
Because i love you so much
I grabbed him by the throat and he punched me in the nose
I'm think he broke the mother fucker cause there's blood running down my throat
"You done fucked up" is all i said
And i proceeded to beat him until the carpet turned blood red
Come here bitch, you ain't off the hook
You're gonna watch your lover die
And close the final chapter in the book
Of our relationship and life together
I tried to make it go away
I tried to make everything get better
But that was never good enough
Always busy right?
All i ever tried to do was give you better life
And as i choke you I know you can see
How much i love you girl your the one for me
fade away sweet baby
I'll see you on the otherside
Cause when you let go
I'm gonna take my own life
And as her eyes roll back in her head
I pull the gun out cock the hammer put it to my head
And i said:
Now i take my pain with this final touch
I will die tonight
Because i love you so much
Now you will be mine
I said you would in time
Now i feel the guns touch
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Because i love you so much
Lyrics submitted by vegetablelasagne
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