Sorrow rebuild me as I step out of the light
Misery strengthen me as I say my goodbyes

I heal my wounds with grief
And dream of you
And weep myself alive


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    i like this song alot. its short. i dont quite know what it means, but im pretty sure its simple.

    playastyleon September 09, 2007   Link
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    ok now i think i know what this song is all about. hes wanting the strength to commit suicide.

    "sorrow rebuild me as i step out of the light". hes becoming less social,but sorrow will comfort him in a some sort of sick way. "misery strengthen me as i say my goodbyes". if you've ever considered commiting suicide, you would know it takes balls to say goodbye to someone, so hes asking for more pain to give him strength to kill himself. "i heal my wounds with grief". instead of fixing his problems in a posotive way, he again is wanting a negative way to deal with him to give him strength to commit. "and dream of you" dreams of someone. "and weep myself alive" means he's crying himself back to somewhat of a sain mind and realizing that what hes doing is stupid.

    this is just what i think. i dont actually know.

    playastyleon September 09, 2007   Link
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    I think you are right playastyle :] good song! short tho ;/

    Jonneponneon September 14, 2007   Link
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    This song is about Ville's friend Thurston who commited suicide. Songs are Ville's way of coping with this grief, and suicide was Thurston's way. Basically talking about how he feels the grief at all times but especially when he's alone and 'out of the light'. He recorded this by himself, in his hotel room with just his acoustic guitar. At the beginning of the song he says 'for a friend' real quickly. All of this from various interviews out this month and last month.

    Shaddixon September 19, 2007   Link
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    spot on shaddix...its not about ville contemplating suicide, its a song about how he is coping with the grief. at a wake for a funeral, you are in a dim lit room with the exception of the coffin. you walk up to the coffin to say your goodbyes, and when you step out of the light, you are back in the dim room. thats where the analogy he comes up with is from. other than that, its a song about how he still mourns while he is living.

    surfryderon September 23, 2007   Link
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    Woooow! Thank you so much Shaddix and surfryder! I was wondering what it could be about, you can feel the pain and guess it has something to do with suicide, but last two lines approve he stays alive, so... Thx for clearing it up!

    Nice song, I like it a lot, and I think it was ment to be short, the lenght was the point (maybe we can make a parallel with shortness of life, but this is only a guess)

    taniushaon September 24, 2007   Link
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    This is an amazing song but I wish it was longer.

    sweetblood329on November 06, 2007   Link
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    This song is also for a friend of Ville's who commited suicide.

    sweetblood329on November 07, 2007   Link
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    where is this song from?

    Cure.on November 15, 2007   Link
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    It sounds like he is AT the funeral. and coping with it.

    Cöléon November 17, 2007   Link

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