Up and Down

Every time I'm falling out, frustrations seal my doubt
Melodrama ensues inks my impending doom
A million times a day, I'm looking for a remedy
A numbing drug that cures thinking too much
Is a hope for salvation
Ignore how much I love to say
I think I'm losing grip on things
And through whatever, come what may I'm placing bets that time wont save me
It goes up and down
My life's a fucking dragout
Stuck face down and I'm hanging by a thread
Up and down but I think I kind of like it
Up and down I'm safe and sound tonight
The sweet guilt of defeat forever steals my sleep
I'll slit for apathy, and then let freedom sing
Take me far away, let this be my last mistake I'm open wide, please let your heart collide and you just might save my life