Leider

my English translation:

I strike myself a wound that decorates my body Sprinkle it softly with salt to make it more beautiful I let myself bleed Open the skin very gently Enjoy the kiss of the blade that makes me a man I hang myself up on thin wire I have questioned myself I cause myself sorrow, such sorrow I cause myself sorrow, such sorrow I'm not afraid of the bogeyman because I can do such harm to myself I must I must hurt myself again I cause myself sorrow, such sorrow I must hurt myself again because the pain heals me I love my scars in their complete splendor A lovely souvenir I've made myself I bite my tongue and suffer without sound I draw the old knife Yet once more across the skin But if I see myself in a mirror it does my little heart such woe There is still a place on my skin I will again do that which I dread I must I must hurt myself again I cause myself sorrow, such sorrow I must hurt myself again because only the pain remains I must I must hurt myself again I do myself such grief I must I must hurt myself again I do myself a hurt* I must hurt myself again because only the pain remains

• there are slight differences in phrasing in these lines which change emphasis and I've tried a bit to recreate that, but I am afraid my version is more awkward. Es tut mir leid. This song, I think, loses a lot of double meanings in translation...

this has to be one of their greatest songs. and i have a hunch that this song is about self mutilation. btw in the official website the translation they did for "ich tu mir leid so leid" was "i feel so sorry for myself so sorry". they don't capitalize "leid"... idk, i really don't know jackshit of german.

in German, the phrase that means "I'm sorry" actually means 'it does me sorrow" which would explain it. great song! i used to relate to this song, but not anymore but its still awesome!

Apparently "Ich hab mich selbst darum gebeten" colloquially can mean "I was asking for it" in the sense of "I deserved it" or "I had it coming."

I liked this song until I found out that "Ich tu mir leid" meant "I feel sorry for myself," when, on the contrary, it's about someone's mercilessness for themselves. As if it wasn't bad enough that they call clinical depression self-pity, now they see even self-hatred as self-pity. No one's farther from self-pity than people who hurt themselves for the sake of hurting themselves. Suggesting to someone who hates themselves that they're really too soft for themselves will only encourage them to even further self-destruction, because it's one more flaw in themselves to feel guilty about, and one more flaw to punish themselves for. Moreover, it suggests to them that they're not really doing enough their best to hurt themselves. Much of the guilt felt by self-destructive people is for the sake of other people, and much of their self-destruction is an attempt to get even for their imagined wrongs. When the self-destruction is meant to be apparent to others, that's often in a plea for their forgiveness – delusions of persecution are common in depression, as well as in schizophrenia, both illnesses with high self-injury percentages.

the leid part in the song confuses me. because if leid really isn't capitalized then that makes it "sorry" but i guess "sorrow" is the same as "sorry" who knows. german is german and english is english. lets leave it at that. ive only taken a year of german so i dont really know what im talking about..but i have an idea. good job on recreating the song in english though nadjacs . :) i like this song even if it is pretty emo.