This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
And I will never see the truth,
This is not a matter of my youth.
I do not need anybody else,
Bonds would put my mind into cells.
And I will never know I was wrong,
Never listen to those truly strong.
I do not fear anything that's not me,
Ignorance is the ultimate key.
But I wouldn't want to live like this forever.
But change myself? never, never!
The very thought sends shivers down my spine.
I'm sure everything, everything will be fine.
I am the one who cries out at night,
For somebody to change my very core.
Not sure why I live in endless fright,
Doomed to love only myself forevermore.
I am the one who has no real friends,
Shallow people flocking to my banner.
Always trying to make easy amends,
Cherishing my own overbearing manner.
Life - always fragile.
I will never change.
Love - always fleeting.
I will never change.
Life - always fragile.
I will never change.
Love - always fleeting.
I will never change.
But I wouldn't want to live like this forever.
Maybe I really was too clever.
But I wouldn't want to end like that.
I would die lonely and incredibly sad.
I will never drag myself out of this,
The shadows of my past bogging me down.
Feeling lost in turmoil and crisis,
My face forever set in an endless frown.
I have been hurt beyond mental repair,
Thence destined to suffer eternal damnation.
No one can be there for me to care,
But without I will never find salvation.
Lust - always empty.
But I will never change.
Death - always tempting.
But I will never change.
Lust - always empty.
But I will never change.
Death - always tempting.
But I will never change.
Everything is about control.
I must never slip, nor ever fall.
Anything is possible for me.
I must never doubt, and finally be free.
And finally be free.
This is not a matter of my youth.
I do not need anybody else,
Bonds would put my mind into cells.
And I will never know I was wrong,
Never listen to those truly strong.
I do not fear anything that's not me,
Ignorance is the ultimate key.
But I wouldn't want to live like this forever.
But change myself? never, never!
The very thought sends shivers down my spine.
I'm sure everything, everything will be fine.
I am the one who cries out at night,
For somebody to change my very core.
Not sure why I live in endless fright,
Doomed to love only myself forevermore.
I am the one who has no real friends,
Shallow people flocking to my banner.
Always trying to make easy amends,
Cherishing my own overbearing manner.
Life - always fragile.
I will never change.
Love - always fleeting.
I will never change.
Life - always fragile.
I will never change.
Love - always fleeting.
I will never change.
But I wouldn't want to live like this forever.
Maybe I really was too clever.
But I wouldn't want to end like that.
I would die lonely and incredibly sad.
I will never drag myself out of this,
The shadows of my past bogging me down.
Feeling lost in turmoil and crisis,
My face forever set in an endless frown.
I have been hurt beyond mental repair,
Thence destined to suffer eternal damnation.
No one can be there for me to care,
But without I will never find salvation.
Lust - always empty.
But I will never change.
Death - always tempting.
But I will never change.
Lust - always empty.
But I will never change.
Death - always tempting.
But I will never change.
Everything is about control.
I must never slip, nor ever fall.
Anything is possible for me.
I must never doubt, and finally be free.
And finally be free.
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Basically this person's lost, alone, and upset. Throughout this song these thing's are proclaimed. Change myself? Never never. It's become so accustomed to feeling this way it can't imagine feeling anthing else. At the end of the song this individual comes to realize that it can't feel and be this way for the rest of its life. There has to be some rescue or some way out of this hole it's in. But where, who, and how will it be rescued? The song's like one big S.O.S.
I read this as a classic example of an INTP denying the fact that he is truly an INFP. (For more explanation, read up on Meyer's briggs personality types.
edwartica... Thank you for making that connection. Whole-heartedly.
I've always heard this song as me, my conscious(which bolth freaks me out and warms my heart). Referrencing these lyrics here didn't change the song I know, but hearing your MBTI referrence made a huge impact on my scoring. So compelling, that me being a lurker, actually made an account to come say this. By it, I'm borderline INFP... Being true to myself, I didn't take any of it to heart, for fear and doubt of it relating. Because of your relation, I now do. And I'm happy to accept this generalization because I see myself in it and no longer feel alone.
I'd be more grammatically correct and punctual, but I'm late to see The Dark Knight midnight showing! XD
Thank you so very much :]
lol of course I made an error... I'm INTP, borderline -by the very last point(not that I'd personally acknowledge that, just sounds funny ;p) INFP, to clarify.
For me this song may say about the borderline personality disorder. About a person who craves someone "perfect", who will love and accept them as they are and will never leave, yet they keep pushing others away when they get too close to them. Just like a vicious circle.
The classic bravado of a narcissist, peppered with hints of the uncertainty that lurks beneath the facade. Lonely, sad, and proud beyond belief. Very well done.