everything i'd thought i'd learned
the ambition and delusion turned
into drawings on a loose leaf sheet
of figs and fruits i couldn't eat
what in her do i require
the face of gratified desires
and what in me does she require
that face of gratified desire
brownish spider
brownish leaf
confirms my deepest held belief...
no more spider no more leaf
no more me no more belief

Lyrics submitted by Nilhem

Brownish Spider song meanings
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  • +5
    My Interpretation
    I think he's talking about monism with the spider songs. Imagine you see a brown spider on a brown leaf, you consider them separate beings but they're the same color and they just blend in, I think Aaron is talking about how we are all one and that is his deepest belief. "I do not exist..." and the more he gets lost in how god is everywhere and in everything he just loses his identity in god "no more me no more belief" to the point where even his beliefs are overshadowed by god in all.
    Cobrajoe66on October 01, 2010   Link
  • +1
    General Commentmewithoutyou is amazing. they write the greatest lyrics i have ever heard. every single one of their songs is incredible.
    DrowningLessonson December 28, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI believe Brownish Spider is about giving up all hope, where Orange spider is more pesimistic, and yellow spider is at the begginning of the cd and full of hope and happiness.

    Kind of a progression to nothing.
    tucanwarrior13on April 23, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI think it might be pigs and fruits, but I'm not sure, Figs seems redundant. I love this album.
    Knife2aGunFighton September 04, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI love how these short & sweet songs are placed on the album, they're great.

    this album is pretty solid, I love it.
    Thursdayloveon September 05, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Commentpigs and fruits makes more sense seeing as the singer is jewish.
    but in the actual cd booklet it says tarts and fruits, kinda weird.

    its also ambition and illusion.

    figs and fruits could be referring to the previous song, O Porcupine where it says "i never gathered figs from a thorny branch,
    i never picked a grapefruit off a bramble bush"
    joyntkidon December 22, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General Commentawesome songs awesome album. i think this means something much more than we think it could be. life for example everything u thought u learned the ambition and delusioned turned
    mh208on February 11, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentmwYFAN is 100% right. He's not a Jew, but a devoute Christian.

    Anyway, my buddy suggests it's something to do about life and how it ends, hence the

    "no more spider no more leaf
    no more me no more belief"

    But, I think it may be something along the lines of what he requires in a lady and visa versa. That's just an idea, and I'm throwing it out there, I'm totally unsure about it, actually.
    KOinMotionon February 15, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti think it may have to deal with his whole new outlook of his christianity at the time of transition he went through in 2003. how the american christian church will preach and teach what not but everything he thought was the christian way wasn't... i could be wrong on this.
    missadrianaon March 05, 2007   Link
  • 0
    General CommentIn ancient times a spider represented fate.
    That whole them kinda repeats through the album. because when he says I do not exist he means he's DEAD. not literaly but to himself and the world. Thus there being no more spider and no more leaf. The whole album is an enlightenment.
    DavidisDeadon March 31, 2007   Link

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