Love grows in me like a tumor
Parasite bent on devouring its host
I'm developing my sense of humor
Till I can laugh at my heart between your teeth
Till I can laugh at my face beneath your feet

Skillet on the stove
It's such a temptation
Maybe I'll be the lucky one that doesn't get burnt
What the fuck was I thinking?

Love plows through me like a dozer
I've got more give than a bale of hay
And there's always a big mess left over
With the "What did you do?"
And the "What did you say?"
"What did you do?" and the "What did you say?"

Skillet on the stove
It's such a temptation
Maybe I'll be the special one that doesn't get burnt
What the fuck was I thinking?

What the fuck was I thinking?
What the fuck was I thinking?
What the fuck was I thinking?

Love tears me up like a demon
Opens the wounds, then fills them with lead
And I'm having some trouble just breathing
If we weren't such good friends I think that I'd hate you
If we weren't such good friends I'd wish you were dead

Skillet on the stove
It's such a temptation
Maybe I'll be the lucky one that doesn't get burnt
What the fuck was I thinking?

What the fuck was I thinking?
What the fuck was I thinking?

Love is so embarrassing
I'm this awkward and uncomfortable thing
I'm running out of places to hide it
I'm running out of places to hide it
What the fuck was I thinking?

(You know that I've got what you want)
What the fuck was I thinking?
(You know that I've got what you want)
What the fuck was I thinking?
(You know that I've got what you want)
What the fuck was I thinking?
(You know that I've got what you want)


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Fuck Was I Lyrics as written by Jennifer Owen Youngs

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    this song is so perfect for sitting alone, having a cigarette and wondering what went wrong

    CautionarySongon April 11, 2007   Link
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    Pelvicthrust has said it best so far, that the persona in the song has become in love with someone despite her knowing that it will not work out. The love she feels is like a 'tumor', something that she normally would never have asked for, wanted, or expected, but arose nonetheless. Knowing that the love is like the parasite, the speaker tries to just accept it - (I'm developing my sense of humor/ till i can laugh at my heart between your feet.)

    But, i believe that in this case, the person she falls in love with is her best friend (if we weren't such good friends i think that i'd hate you..). The persona then tries to just take the risk of having a relationship with this man, saying maybe she will be special or 'the lucky one that doesn't get burnt.' She then tries the relationship out, only to find out that it fails just as she expected and gets hurt - just as she had expected. The persona is left wondering - 'what the fuck was i thinking?'

    Sometimes you just can't help falling in love.

    Meech8on May 20, 2007   Link
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    this song is about being in love with the right person at the wrong time. the right person is your best friend and loving them is this amazingly complicated thing because you know how perfect or near perfect it could be but the feelings are simply not recipricated. Its hard being there everyday having to fuction as if these sentiments are not existant ("i'm running out of places to hide"). And it is this hidding that kills, it is slowly killing you because love become a part of you and you cant hide who you are. i also think there was a relationship there at some point and it was ended or simply went sour for the best friend ("with the "what did you do?" and the "what did you say?").

    jesisajewon July 08, 2007   Link
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    what the fuck WAS I thinking?? who knows, but I love this song. I'm kinda glad I had that first heartbreak, because now I can really FEEL all these amazing break up songs! I think it's about whatever situation you've been in and can relate to it. That's the best thing about music, every person takes something different from it....:)

    smorgasborgon February 07, 2008   Link
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    i think it's about becoming jaded. everyone thinks they're the exception to the rule of love. nobody expects to get hurt. this song is in retrospect- she has been hurt and totally didn't expect it. now she's questioning how she could be so stupid as to think she was too smart to get hurt.

    the love snuck up on her. she became attached and in love, and, as it always does, it bit her in the ass.

    thaatgirlon February 25, 2008   Link
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    Lovelovelove. I love this song, as well as Voice On Tape, which isn't on here yet.

    ILYhahajkon September 02, 2006   Link
  • 0
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    funny performance too

    driftwoodxon September 28, 2006   Link
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    this song to me, reminds me of all of my ex boyfriends. you know, like, what the fuck was i thinking? haha.

    hashpipeon November 01, 2006   Link
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    i love this song.

    what i got out of it is that she's in love with someone and she's trying to tell herself that it will work out. when in reality its not going to happen and he's not worth it. so she's asking herself "what the fuck was i thinking?," meaning why did she ever fall for him and why did she ever think things could work out.

    when she says "love grows in me like a tumor / love plows through me like a dozer / love tears me up like a demon" shes saying she doesnt want to be in love because she knows he wont return the feelings. but in the back of her mind shes hoping. "you know that i've got what you want"

    PelvicThruston March 12, 2007   Link
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    it's with the "what did you do?" and the "what did you say?"'

    killstaron April 19, 2007   Link

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