This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
[Busdriver]
I'm just here to hold your hand when you die
and to show you around Imaginary Places
Putting many lumps on my bloody stump
Edible habits so I bit the perfect circle
Die in your sleep with the sky at your feet
I'll shoot you when your happy on the day that you will find peace
How did you do it? I don't know, I'm OK!
Every person I know is a secret sorta agent
'cause I'm accused of lewd conducts
All prove hard to rate the prompts(?)
Any kind of rumor for em, may they rest to put me in a loony bin
A funny farm a coo-coo but they need a villain
I'm just here to hold your hand when you die
There is not a sicker person that can do it better
No need to skip it in my eco system
But in the audience of me being evil Christian
H.M. know how I hate him so
But he charged me for a halo
But I'm on a scavenger hunt for a map with a chunk
of a sky mirror I'll go crazy with a mud pie
I play dead songs on the sill screen
Iron my shirt it is a chill dream
It is on to lead away to the stair well till we gut him in it
straight up from the center finally fair-well
I'm just here to hold your hand when you die
and to give your assault rifle a banana clip
Flow in the dark when I stroll in the park
giving everybody informative pamphlets
No sign of life for as far as I can see
Everybody's just charred meat up in the car seat
"Eat shit and die" to the secret spy
'cause I have this funny feeling that I'm being watched
24-hour surveillance
Money or power or ailments
Why'd they send the medical that he shimmered me the hammer
it was way too much you coulda went and had 200?
I'm just here to hold your hand when you die
Psycho better cause trouble runnin for your soft spot
Late market closed, and the irk on her nose
Turned into a deadly gas flowin through the air ducts
She's had no love for the thought that she was
She doesn't love me 'cause I don't have the right hair cut
I'm miss-understood, I just face it, I'm no good!
But I will not apologize for anything that I say
My name is Mr. Busdriver
This is the producer, Paris
We did not embarrass to admit that we were purchasing a bit
of our own Imaginary Place!!
Kids...if you want to piss off your parents
show interest in the arts..
Kids...if you REALLY want to piss off your parents
buy real estate in an Imaginary Place...oh yes..
OK, OK, alright!
Yea...now...move!
(DJ cuts and scratches)
Guess I gotta do my shout outs now..
(Peace to...)
I'm just here to hold your hand when you die
Paris and Daddy care, they'll also be there too
I'm just here to hold your hand when you die
Unless you get the ?senamums? to her we'll help you
I'm just here to hold your hand when you die
Feel the fellowship announced everyone will help you
I'm just here to hold your hand when you die
Shoulda been an empire Hip-Hop clan too
I'm just here to hold your hand to die
I'm just here to hold your hand when you
Just here to hold your hand..
when you die..
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This song is about his dad dying his dad shot down his dreams of making it as a rapper all his life and so when he finally made it he lost all connection with his dad(who happens to be a super christian)
the line when he says "kids if you really want to piss off your parents,show interest in the arts" should be self explanatory at this point
and also "im just here to hold your hand when you die and show you around imaginary places" is about his mother and his guilt forcing him to spend the last few days with his father,which he spent arguing with him around religion
its also noted that his father tried to have him institutionalized when he was 14(when he first took the interest up in music)
when he says"but they needed a villian" in the following line is because his siblings all became teachers and things like that and he seemed to be the only one without security.
the last thing when he says "im gonna do my shoutouts now"
the reason there is none is because hes self made with no support from family
i actually made all this up btw
wow that was quite amazing. I would have probably bought that if you didn't add the end there.
Well played sir
shit man