This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
[Hook]
This is a story from my lifes
See I wouldn't want to lie
Getting on by with my lullaby
And all a my friends getting high
Mens holler holler hi all the time
But I can't find no man to love me
Sometimes I get up I'm down
I feel deadened hurt headed I'm down so I sweat it
Through my day this ain't the way chained to the desk
Mess hurt wrists phone fits and post-its
I heard it gonna change but see you in it hard to see
The final minute when
The world is yours all yours
I'll get it I mean it
And in the evenin, I'm alone
Not by the phone but I'm alone yo
Persevere all my fears try to weigh me down
Look around my ceilin's peelin rap deal you feelin I ain't now
Do it myself independent gotta try, no lie
Ain't No Limit kid no Majors
Gonna fuck me up right
I just want to sing a song about my life, my life
[Repeat Hook]
I'm sweet like nickel
Candy debutante on the street what in heat
Caught you haulin at me, mind stallin at me
Need you workin for me, need you talkin to me
Not something fuckin on me, what!
I'm patient like a doctor
Got the stock of proper genius hottest Venus
On top I'll stop your heart drop
Your jaw right to your pe-better heed this
Queen of Mt. Olympus can't resist the goddess honest
The kind you never
Always take home to your mamas
Accomplish what no other can treat you like no other man
Understand this mad mind body you ain't seen in a woman
My mommy possessed this passed this on
Dad made me strong played me mad songs growin up
Told me I be the one well I want the one
Levels deep and heart drum beat
boom beat boom beat
But complex properties of my mind keep em 10 steps behind
Ttakin mad time to find a guy it ain't right
Worthy of my lullaby it ain't right
Try to keep this shit inside it ain't right it ain't right
All night I can drive you wild
The sex the intellect get respect fuck the cheddar
Better bet
I'm the next to get mine find mine it's alright
But sometimes it hurts my mind
[Repeat Hook]
Word to God
I'll be the best girl you ever got, I'll keep it so hot
I'll just never stop
I got the plot locked, I got no guns cocked
And if you with me let me hear you say Nana
I'm sure that this is more than you can handle
This example
Coming from a girl placed high up on the mantle
Hold a candle to it, sick of the predicament
Tired of the bull thick headed
Need a sedative to get at it, well I invented it
My case in point I would anoint you my prince
Love you head toe to fingerprints
All benefits laugh and count all our kids,
make all our bids
Butterfly kiss with our lids
Let's make it come all to this
Gem at the precipice of the palace
Drink from my chalice
Never be jealous, no malice, I'll be your ballast
When winds blow on I'll stand strong
When winds blow on I'll stand strong
This is a story from my lifes
See I wouldn't want to lie
Getting on by with my lullaby
And all a my friends getting high
Mens holler holler hi all the time
But I can't find no man to love me
Sometimes I get up I'm down
I feel deadened hurt headed I'm down so I sweat it
Through my day this ain't the way chained to the desk
Mess hurt wrists phone fits and post-its
I heard it gonna change but see you in it hard to see
The final minute when
The world is yours all yours
I'll get it I mean it
And in the evenin, I'm alone
Not by the phone but I'm alone yo
Persevere all my fears try to weigh me down
Look around my ceilin's peelin rap deal you feelin I ain't now
Do it myself independent gotta try, no lie
Ain't No Limit kid no Majors
Gonna fuck me up right
I just want to sing a song about my life, my life
[Repeat Hook]
I'm sweet like nickel
Candy debutante on the street what in heat
Caught you haulin at me, mind stallin at me
Need you workin for me, need you talkin to me
Not something fuckin on me, what!
I'm patient like a doctor
Got the stock of proper genius hottest Venus
On top I'll stop your heart drop
Your jaw right to your pe-better heed this
Queen of Mt. Olympus can't resist the goddess honest
The kind you never
Always take home to your mamas
Accomplish what no other can treat you like no other man
Understand this mad mind body you ain't seen in a woman
My mommy possessed this passed this on
Dad made me strong played me mad songs growin up
Told me I be the one well I want the one
Levels deep and heart drum beat
boom beat boom beat
But complex properties of my mind keep em 10 steps behind
Ttakin mad time to find a guy it ain't right
Worthy of my lullaby it ain't right
Try to keep this shit inside it ain't right it ain't right
All night I can drive you wild
The sex the intellect get respect fuck the cheddar
Better bet
I'm the next to get mine find mine it's alright
But sometimes it hurts my mind
[Repeat Hook]
Word to God
I'll be the best girl you ever got, I'll keep it so hot
I'll just never stop
I got the plot locked, I got no guns cocked
And if you with me let me hear you say Nana
I'm sure that this is more than you can handle
This example
Coming from a girl placed high up on the mantle
Hold a candle to it, sick of the predicament
Tired of the bull thick headed
Need a sedative to get at it, well I invented it
My case in point I would anoint you my prince
Love you head toe to fingerprints
All benefits laugh and count all our kids,
make all our bids
Butterfly kiss with our lids
Let's make it come all to this
Gem at the precipice of the palace
Drink from my chalice
Never be jealous, no malice, I'll be your ballast
When winds blow on I'll stand strong
When winds blow on I'll stand strong
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My Life Lyrics as written by Marti Sharron Gary Skardina
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