This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
And so I find myself here once again
First step down remedy lane
Budapest you tore my world apart, well, here I am
Worn with rope ends on my mind, torn with blood scarred in my eyes
But now I'm back to shake that from my life
Ending theme, ending theme
Ripping at the seams, for an opening
Back again at deak ter
I know I could have left her there
It was the feeling of leaving myself that I could not bear
The same old hotel room in pest one night before the sziget fest
Hungarian princess will you share my rest?
To rest in my
Ending theme
Ending theme
Ripping at the seams, for an opening
To be honest I don't know what I'm looking for, who to be
Sitting here as once before, weeks ago
Just waiting for a knock on that door
And I have left all I thought was me to find out, to make sure if it was you or me
That made me feel so free and real, but when we kiss I don't know, I just don't know
'Cause it leaves a taste of emptiness, and I think what if I'm simply depressed?
blind, just finding rest from my mind here in Budapest?
Confusing zest with the joy of being blessed with the bliss of self-escape as we kiss?
And mixing my being unstressed with your being undressed and the taste of being true
With the fresh taste of me and you as we touch? I don't know
But I saw so much of me in you, the me I've missed, the young and free in you
But still, that doesn't mean a thing, may not mean anything about my needing you
But I guess we had to meet, to be near, to make sure, and still my dear
Beyond this bed and that door, to be honest, I fear I just don't know
Ending theme
Ending theme
Fanning flames to dreams of belonging
Ending theme
Ending theme
Ripping at the seams, for an opening
To be honest I don't know what I'm looking for
Lying here, watching you leave through that door
First step down remedy lane
Budapest you tore my world apart, well, here I am
Worn with rope ends on my mind, torn with blood scarred in my eyes
But now I'm back to shake that from my life
Ending theme, ending theme
Ripping at the seams, for an opening
Back again at deak ter
I know I could have left her there
It was the feeling of leaving myself that I could not bear
The same old hotel room in pest one night before the sziget fest
Hungarian princess will you share my rest?
To rest in my
Ending theme
Ending theme
Ripping at the seams, for an opening
To be honest I don't know what I'm looking for, who to be
Sitting here as once before, weeks ago
Just waiting for a knock on that door
And I have left all I thought was me to find out, to make sure if it was you or me
That made me feel so free and real, but when we kiss I don't know, I just don't know
'Cause it leaves a taste of emptiness, and I think what if I'm simply depressed?
blind, just finding rest from my mind here in Budapest?
Confusing zest with the joy of being blessed with the bliss of self-escape as we kiss?
And mixing my being unstressed with your being undressed and the taste of being true
With the fresh taste of me and you as we touch? I don't know
But I saw so much of me in you, the me I've missed, the young and free in you
But still, that doesn't mean a thing, may not mean anything about my needing you
But I guess we had to meet, to be near, to make sure, and still my dear
Beyond this bed and that door, to be honest, I fear I just don't know
Ending theme
Ending theme
Fanning flames to dreams of belonging
Ending theme
Ending theme
Ripping at the seams, for an opening
To be honest I don't know what I'm looking for
Lying here, watching you leave through that door
Lyrics submitted by Esgaroth, edited by Octavarium64
Ending Theme Lyrics as written by Pain Of Salvation Daniel Gildenloew
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