This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
kanji aeta ano yoru wa tsumetaku ite tsuki
okubukaku nemuru kaihou no soko e
kimochi wa touku hanareta kimyouna kankaku
kirei ni mieta hibi doku no hanazono
kyokudo no iradachi oboeta hi kara mou
hoka no dare ka wo sagashite ita
mou kuzushite shimatta yoru wa modorazu
kimi ni au tabi uso wo tsuite ita
boku ga soko ni ima wa touku hanareteta
ima wa aisenai jijitsu ga
omosugite kurushiku kanashii
yoru ga nagasugita setsunai
kimi ni okotta hitotsu no jiko ga boku wo nayamase
kimi wo sukuu kotoba no hitotsu mo iezu sameta
boku ga soko ni ita
ima wa uso de mo ii nara dakishimeyou ka
kimi no tame ni naru nara nando demo mitsumeta
hoka no dare ka ni idakare...
dakara sukoshi demo chikaku ni irareru you ni
uso demo ima wa kokoro wo koroshiteta
saisho de saigo no yoru wa sugisatta
anata wa saigo made mo kizukanai furi wo shite ita
okubukaku nemuru kaihou no soko e
kimochi wa touku hanareta kimyouna kankaku
kirei ni mieta hibi doku no hanazono
kyokudo no iradachi oboeta hi kara mou
hoka no dare ka wo sagashite ita
mou kuzushite shimatta yoru wa modorazu
kimi ni au tabi uso wo tsuite ita
boku ga soko ni ima wa touku hanareteta
ima wa aisenai jijitsu ga
omosugite kurushiku kanashii
yoru ga nagasugita setsunai
kimi ni okotta hitotsu no jiko ga boku wo nayamase
kimi wo sukuu kotoba no hitotsu mo iezu sameta
boku ga soko ni ita
ima wa uso de mo ii nara dakishimeyou ka
kimi no tame ni naru nara nando demo mitsumeta
hoka no dare ka ni idakare...
dakara sukoshi demo chikaku ni irareru you ni
uso demo ima wa kokoro wo koroshiteta
saisho de saigo no yoru wa sugisatta
anata wa saigo made mo kizukanai furi wo shite ita
Lyrics submitted by Gazette_reitaXruki
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This is one of my favourite songs! I has troubles translating the song, but with the help of a friend, I got it, we think. oh well: that night we were able feel each other, turned freezing cold deeply slumbering, to the depths of release
the feeling, is a strange sensation far removed from me days that seemed so beautiful, in the poison flower garden
from that day I felt such extreme aggravation onward, I've been looking for someone else.
that night it all fell apart will never be again everytime I meet you, I've lied. because now I'm so far removed from there.
the fact that I can't love you anymore weighs heavilly on me, tortures and saddens me the night was too long, it pains me
the accident which happened to you, causes me concern unable to say any words of comfort, I cooled to you I was there.
If you don't care that it's not for real, I'll hold you For you, I looked as much as you wanted
while getting fucked by someone else...
so that I can be even just a little closer to you, even if its not real, I stifled my heart for now
that first and final night has passed you pretended not to know until the very end