I love this song! I started singing this one time loudly during lunch in highschool and one of my friends didn't know it was a song and thought I was being serious XD
The general feeling I get of the song is someone who's lying to themselves by trying to be someone else so he could fit in with everyone else but he's just so compulsive he keeps fucking up and ending up, as he says in the song, committing social suicide. He gets so frustrated trying to be someone else and he knows he can't keep it up:
"I'm riding hard on the last legs of every lie,
And the BMX bike of my life is about to explode,
I'm about to explode"
He deals with the stress by drinking, and that's how he deals with his situation and his life. But he's finally giving up on it all, and breaks down (by a slow descent into alcoholism) even though he knew it was coming:
For the last time with feeling
we'll try not to smile
As we cover our heads and drink heavily into the nights
That's no shocking surprise.
He still hold the general view of most alcoholics that they can quit whenever they want to, but they just don't want to. It's easier to drink than to not:
I believe that I can, overcome this and beat everything in the end
But I choose to abuse for the time being,
maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die
With the 'Sister Soldier' stanza it sounds like he's about to come back from it, someone's helping him recover, but in the end he ends up just going back to the booze. Cause its easier.
Jennmonsteron June 21, 2010 Link
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