I've forgotten my name
I'm sick and weak and fresh from sleep
I crawl from a crooked bed
With dirty feet and shaky hands
The numbers on the clock read
1140 am
I've got time to clean myself
Then sell my soul again
When I sleep I dream
I dream I am awake
Or was it when awake
I dream I am asleep
I work I shit I eat I sleep
I'm inspected by the number seven
This can't be my life
No this isn't me

I don't know what's beset this change
I barely recognise my own face
In my mind something's just not right
But in my heart I'm bathed in golden liiiight
Bathed in golden light
Bathed in a golden light

My eyelids still heavy, my pulse still faint
I'm puzzle pieces, my memory's strained
I feel strength swell, a day dream
Is shaking under this duality
my pulse still faint
I hear a strange voice but don't know what it's saying

And in this moment
Second stop and I burst with clarity
A wealth of love and hate, gone blank
For I finally remember my fucking name

I eat rocks
And I breathe wind
I've been around the world
And back again
I've lost the static
And the gray is gone
I've got the power of
A million exploding suns

I am consumed by my might
Blinded in light as I would be in night
This void is holding me tight
It doesn't feel right

When will I ever break free
Within or without I'm chained by the dream
The void is holding me tight
It doesn't feel right

When will I ever break free
Within or without I'm chained by the dream
The void and light are both me
It doesn't feel right

Bright lights flood my eyes
It's true
Now I realise
The perilous truth
Of a perilous life
By my own device
The strength of my high
Is the strength of my low
Unless there's no me
They both
They both explode

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    General CommentI never realised it until I read these lyrics, but this song is so blatantly about The Sentry, a Marvel Comics superhero. I have no clue at all why I never guessed it when the goddamn title is the same as the subline to The Sentry's name.

    God I'm a moron.
    Pacon March 31, 2006   Link
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    Song Meaningfor me this song is about overcoming addiction. fuck your comics
    poisonedcheeseon July 28, 2015   Link
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    My InterpretationI interpret this song both ways, it has too many references to The Sentry to not be about him at all. He's the mightiest of all Marvel superheros. An enhanced super soldier serum causes the sentry's molecules to be supercharged by the sun and move at a different rate than the rest of the world. He's been around since before the Fantastic 4, but no one remembers him because of the Watchtower. Bob Reynolds doesn't remember much about his life as a superhero; he lives his life as a regular person, a slob more or less, laying around the house watching tv and sleeping most of the time. The Watchtower is a kind of safeguard created so the Sentry doesn't remember his powers, and so the public forgets about The Void. The Void is the Sentry's alter ego. He claims that every time he does something good, the Void retaliates with something just as bad ("the strength of my High is the strength of my low"). "The Void is holding me tight." describes being crippled by the fear of the void taking over. Of course this is just my interpretation, as the Sentry is badass, but there are several things lines that don't quite fit. Nathan may be comparing himself to the Golden God of Good, but it's not clear if his statement about schizophrenia is true. He has referred to his alterego is General Beam, as he usually comes out after drinking some Jim Beam.
    Opethianon November 15, 2009   Link
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    General Commentfirst of all i want to say that this is some of the most intelligent discussion of modern music that i have EVER seen and it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside; people DO care about lyrics and meaning in songs !!!!!!!! secondly i think that you guys are all capturing one aspect of the meaning and trying to relegate it to only being about that one thing. Considering that a lot of the songs from H the B are about Nathans personal problems including his inner struggles i would say that even though this song is obviously about the marvel character it is also probably about how Nathan relates to that character (wether that be because hew himself has schizophrenia or just simply because he can relate to a character who has problems in general)
    llamagoelzon March 07, 2010   Link
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    General CommentI just thought I would share this with you guys.

    Reading the comment about the song being about the Sentry has had a profound effect on me. I always interpreted this song, like some others, as being about addiction and recovery, and the constant struggle that never ends. I was/am an addict so obviously that's why I saw that in the words.

    Turns out, the song is 100% blatantly about the Marvel superhero The Sentry. The real catch and utterly intriguing thing about this is - The Marvel backstory for The Sentry, who's real name was Bob Reynolds, was a meth addict (same with me) who broke into a research facility to get high or steal shit, ended up coming across a serum called Project Sentry, drank it and gained the power of a million exploding suns. He became the superhero The Sentry. What he didn't know was he also became the supervillan The Void, at the same time. For everything good the Sentry did, the Void did something horrible of equal value. So in a sense he became THREE different people. He was still Bob Reynolds and both alter egos. He substituted his addiction for meth with an addiction to the serum. He was constantly struggling to figure out which one he was at any given time.

    That's exactly like what being a recovering addict is like.

    When you're in the throes of addiction, you're the void. Nothing good comes from you, you just go around ruining lives and being horrible, even if it's not on purpose. You're the lowest you can possibly get. And the power the low has over you is overwhelming.

    When you're actively in recovery, you feel like the Sentry. The drugs are gone and you start to feel super human, not just like you used to, you are overwhelmed with the realization that you can finally be a normal person again. It makes you feel happier than you've ever been in your life, you feel invincible.

    Once you're off of dope for long enough, the high of recovering goes away, and real life and reality start to settle in again. You turn back into the Bob that you always were, before the drugs. And you start to realize that all of the problems you had before it all, all of your hangups, insecurities, all of that, are still there. You aren't some super human, you're just back to being human again, and all that entails, good and bad. And you realize that you will have to struggle every day to avoid becoming the Void again.

    That's when the strength of your high is the strength of your low. You remember all the people you hurt, let down, how you let yourself down. You remember what rock bottom really feels like, and all you know is you never want to be there again. It was so horrible that it motivates you to avoid it - at all cost. Your low was so strong, that it has empowered your high.

    I can go on and on really. I'm just amazed at the lyrics and even the Sentry story. I don't find much in life that I feel I can truly identify with, but his story, this song, what it's all talking about really hits home.

    HTB lyrics can range from utterly nonsensical to incredibly profound. This is certainly some profound shit.
    timwins31on December 30, 2015   Link
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    General CommentVideo for this song ownnnnnnnnnnnnnnns.
    yee yee.
    removeyourteethon January 05, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentCould any of you shiny sexy people tell me what the video is aboot? I saw it on a dvd and have been... slightly confoozed ever since.
    It rox!
    Iowa $evenon March 25, 2006   Link
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    General CommentCould any of you shiny sexy people tell me what the video is aboot? I saw it on a dvd and have been... slightly confoozed ever since.
    It rox!
    Iowa $evenon March 25, 2006   Link
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    General CommentAt the end of the video they explode just just megamen characters do when they die.
    sobooon April 03, 2006   Link
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    General Commentin my opinion the best part of this song is the keyboards in the "bathed in a golden light" part. it almost seemed impossible how fast they were!
    superSaladchoiceon May 21, 2006   Link

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