Recovering

It starts off something like "All damage done(???) I'm bitter from Trying to be broken While these comfortable rountines Are smothered with affection I chose to ???? I chose whatever convinces you that I should be allowed to..."

Yeah, first off, this song absolutely rapes. Very well done song.

The lyrics, I think, are pretty self-explanatory. To me, he talks about basically popping pills until he's dillusional, to hide the person that he really is. I don't know, there's prolly more to it than that though.

This is a concept album. Which means that the entire album tells a story. Each song is a different installment in the story of the nameless patient. Somtimes the perspective is switched from the patient to the doctor to the deceased wife. My interpretation of the story goes as follows.

Introducing - The doctor is talking about how he has released the patient from the hospital again, indicating it's not the first time he's been released. The patient was hospitalized because he suffered from violent horrible nightmares and killed his wife whom he loved very much in his sleep. The patient is catatonic, which is just a state of non-responsivness, almost.

Dreaming - This song is about the night that the Patient kills his wife. He suffocates her while having a nightmare.

Waking - The Patient wakes up to realise what he's done. He calls the police and turns himself in and he is waiting for the ambulance. He can't believe what he's done, he wants to take it back. He covers the house with her perfume.

Sentencing - The judge and the doctors decide whether to charge him with murder and send him to jail or decalre him mentaly instable and send him to the hospital. The doctor thinks he shoudl be hospitalized.

Medicating - The Patient is in the hospital and tries to convince the doctor to release him. He wants to go back to his life and he thinks that the hospital is just making him worse. The doctor agrees and releases him from the hospital.

Purging - The Patient hsa been released and is returning into society. Everyone is shocked at his quick return into society/work considering what he did. The guilt becomes overpowering inside of him and he cuts off his hands so he won't ever kill again.

Relapsing - The Patient is back in the hospital after cutting off his hands and he begins to hear his wife's voice in his head. He begins trying to fill his emptiness by writing a song inside his head.

Recovering - The Patient is on medication since he is catatonic and he is also obviously on painkillers due to his lack of hands. He begins taking more pills than necessary and all he can hear is the song inside of his head. He takes more and more pills to keep the song playing.

Composing - The Patient convinces the doctor he's getting better and requests to see his friends and family because he thinks it'll help him recover. He has everyone over for dinner and poisons them all, killing them. He is "composing" his song by killing people and he thinks that he can see his wife. The song in his head keeps her alive in his mind.

Disintegrating - The Patient is completely isolated with the song inside his head. He is abusing alcohol and drugs and in a state between the living and dead. He's thinking of everyone he's killed and needs a finale to his song.

Healing - The Patient has called the doctor and he feels the song in his head coming to an end. By this time he's barely even alive and he has made a choice to get better, that's why he called the doctor. He is waiting for the doctor to arrive and take him to the hospital. The song in his head is what is keeping him alive.

Dying - The Doctor finally arrives for the Patient and finds him close to death lying in his apartment. He can smell the odour of the bodies that are most likely still in the apartment and he can smell a woman's perfume, the Patient's wife's perfume. The Patient knows he is dying and he knows what he did. He is finally responding and I think he is happy he is dying cause he will be with his wife. He is looking back at everythign that happened and he is just giving up on the song and on living.

Of course this is all just my interpretation who knows if I'm even close. Hahah oh well let me know what you think.

"old habits die hard, growing bitter from trying to be broken while these comfortable routines are smothered with affection well, i choose to switch between the two i choose whatever convinces you, that I should be allowed to slip through the cracks and get back to the life these walls are unforgiving send someone to check on me and take notes on my recovery"

I wonder if any of the band member were actually in the psych ward. I know it's a concept album. But they capture it so well.

Oh my God this CD is so amazing...I've listened to it so many times, and I've only had it two days. To me, this song is more than just him taking more pills than neccesary. Because the band members decided to call it "Recovering" and the character obviously isn't, it leads me to believe the character BELIEVES he is recovering. Because of this, he starts living in the alternate reality of the song in his head, but believes he is sane and is getting better.

old habits die hard, growing bitter from trying to be broken while these comfortable routines are smothered with affection well, i choose to switch between the two i choose whatever convinces you, that I should be allowed to slip through the cracks and get back to the living these walls are unforgiving send someone to check on me and take notes on my recovery

one pill will get me through the day but I take two anyway when I take three pills the song begins to play one that won't go away. And even though I know one pill will get me through the day I take two anyway when I mix four pills with a drink the song starts to play its in the back of my head and its everywhere and its all I can think about

its all spinning out of control for one day this thing is out of my hands while under severe supervision, everything is, everything is but when unsuspected, addiction is under the radar and anything goes, so here I sit, comatose almost

I float between hospitals and halfway homes between halfway living and halfway lying and I know all the awful things that no one needs to know I take my medicine and make them believe that i'm a better man

one pill will get me through the day but I take two anyway when I take three pills the song begins to play one that won't go away. And even though I know one pill will get me through the day I take two anyway when I mix four pills with a drink the song starts to play its in the back of my head and its everywhere and its all I can think about

but still I hear the song its everywhere surrounding me and ringing in my ears. the perfect song will call for sedatives, sacrifice and sing-alongs so sing along