When you wake up to white walls
and endless halls
There's an emptiness
that echoes through it all
So you sit back in your bed
with your mind medicated
and your senses stuck
on the sick side of the bed

You call for the doctor,
it's all you've got anymore
It's the ticket to the life you had before
If I could just make him see
that I don't need this

Doctor, doctor, what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls
I'm no threat at all
Doctor, doctor, what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls
I'm no threat at all

Is there a way we could maybe,
through therapy,
find a way to right and release me?
I just need to be outside,
vanish supervised
Back to my job, back to my life
Yes, I know what I've done
and I regret it every day
If I could make things right,
I know I'd finally,
but when I wake up to these white walls,
to the endless halls, to the hospital
I get lost in the emptiness
that echoes through it all

Doctor, doctor, what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls
I'm no threat at all
Doctor, doctor, what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls
I'm no threat at all

Doctor, I can't thank you enough
Doctor, I can't thank you enough
Doctor, you won't regret this
Doctor, you won't regret this

Doctor, I can't thank you enough
Doctor, I can't thank you enough
Doctor, you won't regret this
Doctor, you won't regret this

Doctor, doctor, what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls
I'm no threat at all
Doctor, doctor, what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls
Doctor, doctor, what am I here for?
Can't you see that I don't need this place?
I don't need these walls
I'm no threat at all


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    General Commentthis really relates to composing...the whole rehab place...waking up to white walls...pretty straight forward.
    i like the whole concept of the cd.
    RuthLesson June 24, 2005   Link
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    General CommentThis is a concept album. Which means that the entire album tells a story. Each song is a different installment in the story of the nameless patient. Somtimes the perspective is switched from the patient to the doctor to the deceased wife. My interpretation of the story goes as follows.

    Introducing - The doctor is talking about how he has released the patient from the hospital again, indicating it's not the first time he's been released. The patient was hospitalized because he suffered from violent horrible nightmares and killed his wife whom he loved very much in his sleep. The patient is catatonic, which is just a state of non-responsivness, almost.

    Dreaming - This song is about the night that the Patient kills his wife. He suffocates her while having a nightmare.

    Waking - The Patient wakes up to realise what he's done. He calls the police and turns himself in and he is waiting for the ambulance. He can't believe what he's done, he wants to take it back. He covers the house with her perfume.

    Sentencing - The judge and the doctors decide whether to charge him with murder and send him to jail or decalre him mentaly instable and send him to the hospital. The doctor thinks he shoudl be hospitalized.

    Medicating - The Patient is in the hospital and tries to convince the doctor to release him. He wants to go back to his life and he thinks that the hospital is just making him worse. The doctor agrees and releases him from the hospital.

    Purging - The Patient hsa been released and is returning into society. Everyone is shocked at his quick return into society/work considering what he did. The guilt becomes overpowering inside of him and he cuts off his hands so he won't ever kill again.

    Relapsing - The Patient is back in the hospital after cutting off his hands and he begins to hear his wife's voice in his head. He begins trying to fill his emptiness by writing a song inside his head.

    Recovering - The Patient is on medication since he is catatonic and he is also obviously on painkillers due to his lack of hands. He begins taking more pills than necessary and all he can hear is the song inside of his head. He takes more and more pills to keep the song playing.

    Composing - The Patient convinces the doctor he's getting better and requests to see his friends and family because he thinks it'll help him recover. He has everyone over for dinner and poisons them all, killing them. He is "composing" his song by killing people and he thinks that he can see his wife. The song in his head keeps her alive in his mind.

    Disintegrating - The Patient is completely isolated with the song inside his head. He is abusing alcohol and drugs and in a state between the living and dead. He's thinking of everyone he's killed and needs a finale to his song.

    Healing - The Patient has called the doctor and he feels the song in his head coming to an end. By this time he's barely even alive and he has made a choice to get better, that's why he called the doctor. He is waiting for the doctor to arrive and take him to the hospital. The song in his head is what is keeping him alive.

    Dying - The Doctor finally arrives for the Patient and finds him close to death lying in his apartment. He can smell the odour of the bodies that are most likely still in the apartment and he can smell a woman's perfume, the Patient's wife's perfume. The Patient knows he is dying and he knows what he did. He is finally responding and I think he is happy he is dying cause he will be with his wife. He is looking back at everythign that happened and he is just giving up on the song and on living.



    Of course this is all just my interpretation who knows if I'm even close. Hahah oh well let me know what you think.
    wishfulthinking167on December 05, 2005   Link
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    General Commentyeah wishfulthinking167 i think you almost have perfect, when i first heard this cd i thought to myself "wow, this is amazing" how they put everything together like that, and the whole concept, BNO blow me away.
    canadian_drummeron January 15, 2006   Link
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    General CommentYeah the whole cd is beautifully thrown together...and that seems like a pretty good summary wishfulthinking167...it makes sense...
    Xxp0etictragedyxXon February 02, 2006   Link
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    General CommentYeah the whole cd is beautifully thrown together...and that seems like a pretty good summary wishfulthinking167...it makes sense...
    Xxp0etictragedyxXon February 02, 2006   Link
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    General CommentI like wishfulthinkings summery is good but i think he has dying wrong you can check my take on it on the dying fourum
    soooyeeahon February 17, 2006   Link
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    General CommentThere's an error in the lyrics.
    They should say: 'I know I'd find a way'
    Instead of 'I know I'd finally'

    I love this song though.
    I think he desperately wants something
    and he's saying he'd do anything
    and he knows what he did was wrong.

    'Yes, I know what I've done
    and I regret it every day.
    If I could make things right,
    I know I'd find a way'
    DevinLynnxon August 29, 2006   Link
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    General Commentyeah, there usually isn't much hidden meaning in boys night out songs.
    especially on the trainwreck record.
    their style's more straight-forward now, but they still have amazing lyrics.
    i saw this on muchmusic (canadian equivalent of mtv... sort of).
    i hope mainstream success doesn't make the quality of their music suffer. :\
    vulgaron February 18, 2007   Link
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    General Commentyeah well you can still relate it to your situation even if there isnt much hidden meaning.. this song always makes me think of high school. like "what am i here for i dont need this place i don't need theses walls.." idk lol just sayin.
    cutie2thecore23on December 17, 2007   Link
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    General Commenti always thought it was

    "and your sex is dead, i'm the sixth sense of the dead"
    lmao no.
    thrwmyhrtawy.on October 15, 2008   Link

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